Dear Dreth,
I needed to vent, and only venting to my closest friend will my pain be absolved, atleast I hope,
I am a wreck, people will tell you that society makes them crazy, and that other people do it to them, but thats not wholey true I think they do have a helping hand, recently I found out that i was being used by my suposed GF to get back at her ex-boyfriend, yes I know its not like me to reach out to another at any time, but i felt she was differnt from the others I was painfuly wrong, she tore my still beating heart from my chest and made it die, and still I am to hide my anger, still I am to remain calm, I do not know how long I can hold this facade of happiness, I do not know how long I can hold onto sanity as the “normal” people know it, I am on the edge everthing is spinning red, my enimies faces are popping up on random peoples bodies, love I though was real, never existed. Maybe it is true maybe I am destined to be alone for all time, but why has fate thrown me all this pain, why couldn’t fate just have love forsake me from day one instead of having it throw problem after problem at me with a big stupid grin on its face, Dreth I may not be the same person you once knew, I will write again after I have reached Pentacost Monistary, they have transfered me to guard yet another priest. I hope my soul stays strong and my mind sane, I will talk to you soon friend.
Sincerely,
Allen Nytestar
2 comments ↓
Don’t hold onto your fascade of happiness, let it go.
Go and beat the S**t out of a boxing bag or something to let that anger vent out of your system. You will never get rid of all of it but it’s a start.
If you are still with this GF then get rid of her cos she is obviously using you and doesn’t love you in the way you loved her.
Advice may seem weak but the strongest part of life comes from ones’ emotions so don’t carry the burden.
Tris
your right love doesnt exist,and i doubt your destined to be alone.we may htink love doesnt exist or perhaps it is just because we dont know love have never felt it before or seen it. it is certainly not your fault. and sanity is never a good thing we all lose it at sometime or another.as for fate it is cruel, fate does nothing but torment your mind and soul.