ok the big question is where does a person retain his/her personailty. there are so many arguements to fights for either side but which one is the true side. I write this while thinking about my life and my family you see back in the 70’s when everybody was listening to the “doors” and all the other bands that we all know as “classic” bands my father was busy starting up a gang in orange county ,california called LA COLONIA and if you were ever to meet them on the street thay would say LA COLONIA , ORANGE COUNTY , SUR 13 meaning the colony, orange county, southern californiaand back then that was just a little group of kids trying to be hard but as times got older they got “harder” and when it came to the time when my parents were about to give birth to me they decided that the gang life was no longer the thing for them so they made a concious descision to move out of the ghetto for my sake …
as i grew up in my new neighborhood in Riverside , CA i had the good life there were virtually no trouble in my elementary school but as i got into my intermediate school i began to start trouble and get in fights every week and eventually ended up getting kicked out of 8th grade and i eventually made my way back into school for high school but the lesson i learned in jr.high just wasnt quite enough i still had to prove myself as a hardcore gangbanger so i fought ,stabbed (and yes as unbeivable as it sounds yes i even shot people i am not proud of it but it is something ive got to tell you before i can expect a straight answer from you)basically i fit my self into the gang banger lifestyle but as i turned 14 years my dad left the house and i began to realize that all i was doing was bull shit and just merely hating someone for the neighbohood they lived in was stupid so i began to hang out with totally different people and that is how i began to be involved in th goth scene and ever since thn i have been fine but recently as my little brother turns 15 i notice him pretending to be hardand trying to say that he is from LA COLONIA but as much as i wish he wasnt he is 3rd generation and since his father is a founding member of the gang if my little brother wants to be a gang banger he has to be in that gang or else my father has to kill him so as i try to convince my brother that gangbanging isnt the best thing to do in the world to do all i get from him is that ive done it and his fathers done it and pretty much every one he knows has done i t and now i am totally stuck trying to think of what i am going to do because there is nothing i can say to stop him all i have to do is sit back and hope he doesnt end up dead but my question is :is all this gangbanging hereditary or just learned behavior
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I’ll say its a little bit of both. I think its in your genes to have violent tendencies but the fact that your father started all this in the first place, just added fuel to the fire.
I wish you the best of luck in trying to solve this issue
bloodslut
What bloodslut said.
i have a lot of respect for you. you knew what you were doing was wrong. i used to argue with my friends over wether how clever you are runs in the family, she thought so , i didnt. but we were, according to science, both right. i think the influence you and your father had on your brother is part of it, what did you think of what your father did?, what memories does your brother have of what you did? the things my older brothers and sisters did, i want to do them too, luckily for him you have set a good example and now he will hopefully realise what he is doing is wrong, just like you did.
best of luck beth
sorry for this, im just trying to get rid of anon.