“To cut or not to cut…that is the question” -Raven Carver; 10/31/84-7/16/00A simple quote, given by my late best friend, Raven Carver. As you can plainly see, she died last July. By her own hand. As did her older brother Craig, three months later.The reason I’m writing this is because I have a question. Why do people cut themselves? I do, and I have nothing against it. But…why?
It’s actually quite interesting to see the blood suddenly appear on your arm, leg, stomach, or wherever. Even more amazing is the people who cut.Preps, goths, stoners, jocks, children, and adults. Everyone. Even those who look down upon those who are open about it do. Whoa, that was confusing. Let me put it another way…Kitty cuts and she lets the scars show. Kate is always telling Kitty to stop, and that it’s wrong. But, at the end of the day, Kate cuts herself, too. And then hides them.But WHY? I’m going to ask that question a lot. Why? Is it peer pressure, pressure in general? I know kids that have perfect families, good grades, and everything going for them. As long as you don’t ask them to take off the sweatshirt they’re wearing.Do they do it because they want to fit in better? Seriously, folks. I mean, even the popular people aren’t popular with everybody. Are they trying to please everyone?And what about us “goths”? (Irritating stereotype, isn’t it?) Why do we do it? Is it our blood fetishes or shitty lives? OK, not everyone has a shitty life. But most do. People say that the reason they do it is because they need to express themselves. I used to sing, write poetry, and talk for long periods to people much, much older than me. I was…artistic. Now, at the young age of 14 going on 15, I do none of those. My “mom” has cut off all forms of my expression. No singing, no talking about the meaning of life, and NO POETRY! That’s why I do it, I think. Like my body is an open canvas, and I want to “paint” it.*sighs and rests head on paws* Tell me, why do you do it? If you don’t, why do you ignore your friends that do? Why can’t you help? Why, and be honest, do you say that our pain scares you, and you can’t handle it? Why is it that we have to deal with this every day, and you bastards sit on your pretty flawless lives and say you’re not like us? Why are you ashamed to admit who you are? You’re not above us, you know. And you’re not weaker or stronger than us.So, I ask again. Why do you cut? Why does anyone cut?Thank you, and goodnight.Darkest Blessings to all,~*Nightkitten*~
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last nov. and dec. i went cut myself a lot. for me, it was mainly the adrenline rush, the feeling of seeing the object dig into my skin, sense of control while i was releasing my emotiong…other times it was just to relax, seeing the blood rise relaxed me…but really, there’s nothing wrong in my life, i have parents who care, my grades aren’t bad, i have friends (even though i don’t really connect with most)…but i did it anyway. for two months i stopped because i had a boyfriend who was totally against it, that’s what made me stop. i had someone who cared and that i could take out anything that was bothering me by telling him…though one night (month after breaking up, he’s out of the picture now), i cut myself as a way to step away from the overload of thoughts…i used it as a way to unload my emotions…the rush i got helped out a lot. not only that, but something i remember liking about cutting was watching the scars heal, see exactly how deep i cut…another part of it was hiding it from other people, added risk to the game, if you will. just last week i found all the scars that i thought had disappeared, or that i was fortunate not to have…that’s another thing, people may think this sick, but i think the blood and the scars are beautiful…when i would cut, it would appear just a scratch, an illusion actually, because each cut lasts forever, even the little ones done with a safety pin that disappeared for me until last week…overall, for me it was a way to release my emotions, and escape for a little bit, but in reality i have nothing to escape from, it’s a rush, i was stuck on adrenaline…
since last year i was interested in people who cut, i don’t know how it started exactly, but looking through past journals, i saw entries where i thought about it…and because of that i wrote a research paper on why people self-injur themselves (below)…then eventually started myself. i don’t do it much anymore, but there’s always the urge, at least for me, to carve something into my body…like what was said the “body is an open canvas,” i too liked “painting” it…
the last time i wanted to cut, i was at school, so i wrote about it in a book of mine. when a friend got a hold of it, it totally shocked him, he had no idea where it came from, and i still haven’t told him. for that reason, too many people shun at the idea…and why should i tell? it’s my choice, right…the main thing, i did/do not cut because i wanted to die, it was my outlet, my escape from reality…
hope i didn’t capture too much time from you, just wanted to share what i know…thanks for listening..if anyone has anything else to say on this topic, i’d love to hear it…
-ele.
**please keep in mind that the following paper i wrote a year ago..my writing has progressed a lot since then..i hope it helps anyway…
Who commits self-mutilation?
Self-Mutilation, to intentionally injure or disfigure one’s self. In a survey of 242 college students, 12% admitted to self-injuring themselves. A growing number of people throughout the world turn to self-mutilation in order to deal with their problems. Those people include both men and woman of all ages who have trouble dealing with emotional stress. Results of this manner are both physical and mental. Family and friends also feel the pain of the cutting, bruising, and hitting that the self-injurer puts themselves through. As with all habits, there are ways to stop. Along with all the outcomes of this problem solving alternative, the scars, the possible infections, the false feeling of control, one may wonder why someone would put themselves through all this.
Last night someone hit his head against the wall. He was deliberately hurting himself without the intent to commit suicide, otherwise known as self-mutilation and self-injury. Deliberate mutilation of the body as a way of managing emotions becomes the reason for self-injury. People use this approach as a way to feel bad things physically which they could not experience emotionally. Cutting is one way to self-injure with something sharp.
Seventy-two percent of self-injurers cut themselves, which makes this method the most common. Materials used to cut are razor blades, broken glass, sharp objects, knives, and needles for poking. Other ways which self-injurers go about injuring themselves are burning, 35%, self-hitting, 30%, picking of healing wounds, 22%, pulling out of eyelashes and locks of hair, 10%, and bone breaking, 8%. Methods for hurting include bruising, cutting, scratching, biting and head-banging. It all depends on the person.
In a survey of 242 college students 12% admitted to self-injuring themselves, and about 1 out of 100 Americans self-injure. The numbers of men and women who self-mutilate continue to grow while many people remain unaware that a problem even exists. For 67 women who self-injure, 34 men do the same. Fewer men self-injure because men usually take pain out on others while women vent out on themselves. Men are brought up to hold their emotions in. “Men act out, women act out by acting in.”
Certain characteristics and life experiences tend to drive people towards self-injurious behavior. Survivors of sexual abuse and people who have endured any kind of abuse at some point in their life may self-injure along with suffering from a number of mental problems. Mental disorders and mental illness such as depression, obsessive-compulsive disorder, eating disorders, and borderline personality disorder prevail as causes behind this behavior. Self-injurers often remain invalidated; they treat themselves, their actions and emotions as worthless and usually self-punish or trivialize. Acting in accordance with the mood of the moment, depression, suicidal behavior, self-destructive, a strong dislike of themselves and tending not to plan for the future may make up a self-injurer. As a result, self-injurers are hypersensitive to rejection, avoidant, and lack impulse control. Another trait carried is the lack of coping skills; mainly they hold no control over how they cope with life. In addition, self-injurers remain chronically angry, most often at themselves. They tend to suppress their anger, have high levels of aggressive feelings directed inward, and chronic anxiety.
Emotional problems continue as the main reason people self-injure. First of all, the person feels like they have no control, but cutting, hitting, or bruising allows them to feel in control. Control feels good. These methods allow a comfortable personal release. It’s easier to hurt one’s self than to hurt others. At some point in life, the thought of existing as a bad person develops in the mind of the self-injurer. They carry a desire or expectation for pain associated with stress, hence the need to hurt. Pain is good; the ability to endure pain results in a strong person. The third cause has to do with feelings. A self-injurer wants to feel something due to the inability to feel anything good or bad. At times they feel too much, or can’t feel anything at all, cutting allows them to feel. Simultaneously, a psychological relief in pain presides. Whether expressing anger or releasing mounting tension, self-mutilation provides a distraction. Survivors of sexual abuse and other self-injurers believe that if they make themselves physically unattractive, no one will want to rape them. A rare final cause has to do with getting attention, though most people start self-mutilating themselves to release emotional traumas.
Results of self-mutilation prevail as emotional and physical. To begin with, self-injury gives the injurer a feeling of control and power. This helps maintain a sense of security, feeling of uniqueness, and obtains a feeling of euphoria or purpose. Escaping numbness, lets the person know they still live as another result along with the thought to “cut out” emotions, cutting out the pain to the surface for healing. Self-mutilation provides an escape from emptiness, depression, and feelings of unreality. It eases tension and offers a relief of stress. Physical body damage includes scars from cutting, burning, bruising, biting, and possible tetanus infection from tools used to cut. The most affective result remains the shame and guilt sometimes left for “being some kind of a sicko”.
Family members and friends of the self-injurer stay indirectly a part of it all and can help their loved one. Initiating conversation about the problem, not avoiding the subject of self-injury, helps the self-injurer know you would care for them. The important thing to remember, do not push talking about this problem if the person you care about doesn’t want to. Second, set reasonable limits. If you turn uncomfortable talking while the self-injurer does something harmful, tell them. Another thing to remember is to make it clear that self-mutilation isn’t necessary for displays of love and care from you. Never use ultimatums, they will not work, just cause more of a problem. Finally, remain available, no use talking to someone who can’t find time to talk and offer physical safe space. If for some reason the person doesn’t seem all right, invite them over for the night, provide distractions by doing something that doesn’t have to do with self-mutilation, and consistently stay patient while offering to do things for them. Throughout all this, perform random and spontaneous acts of kindness, “I thought you’d like to have this flower. When I saw it at the store it reminded me of you.”
Along with support from family and friends, a self-injurer has to help themselves. Wanting to stop forms the first step toward ending the self-injurious behavior. Second, the will to accept feeling uncomfortable, scared, frustrated, and all other feelings without pain. Throw away all tools used to hurt and compose a list of ten alternate methods to hurting for stress release. “Fake pain”, emotional pain, is painful, but something that can occur when understood and controlled, won’t produce lasting results. Do something that generates an intense sensation such as hot peppers, gingerroot, peeled lemons, Ben Gay, Icy-Hot, or Vap-O-Rub under the nose. A solid family support system made up of family and friends is also key when trying to stop self-injuring. Try to stay comfortable talking about self-injury with three people and have at least two people to call when the urge to cut comes. Have someplace else to go so the self-injury cannot occur when at home, alone. Professional guidance may help when stopping, but support from family members smooth the progress towards ending.
Men and women of all ages self-injure themselves. It’s not a new resource for letting out emotional problems, but not a widely known one. Why do people commit self-mutilation? A number of answers arise, emotional problems exist as the main cause. Self-injurers feel too much at times and not enough at others, though somehow, one cut, one bruise, or lock of hair stabilizes all emotions. The best way to deal with this stress and move on from turning inward with problems is to have someone who cares and can listen. Just some support and the will to stop make self-injurers self-injure no more.
i’ve written, in a scattered fashion, about my own experiences with this delicate subject. the first time i did it was to stop myself from doing it to someone else. then i started doing it regularly as a release from numbness, to be sure that i was still capable of feeling something. then it became a way of preventing suicide. later i simply began to like it.
i’m not ashamed by the scars all over my arms and chest, any more than i am ashamed of freckles. they’re simply there. for a year or so i stopped and during our recent long weekend i began doing it again. in fact i spent an entire day in the bath just doing it, just for the hell of it. it felt good and at the time it felt right. i think that during that day i wanted to kill myself, but i couldn’t be so sure, and i certainly am not sure about it now. i don’t think i’d have the guts to.
lots of people will say it’s for attention, and i will concede that in some cases (including my own when i first started) this is true. but there are much less destructive ways to get attention. for the three or so years i was doing it daily it was as addictive as hell. i simply could not go the day without cutting myself three or four times, or stabbing a few cigarettes out on my arms or legs. some of the cuts were quite deep and won’t be fading for a while.
point is there’s a lot of different reasons. i read an article on cats, and how they have been known to do similar things. i don’t know your reasons. i think it’s just how it is.
I show my scars with pride. Sometimes they seem like battle scars, saying I’m fighting to stay alive. That I have not taken my own life yet. I have not cut myself in several months. Granted, my work PC’s keyboard has seen better days and sometimes my head hurts from hitting it so hard. Oh, btw, I’m 28 too. 16 years of self mutilation. 10 suicide attempts, at least. I stopped counting after that.
Sometimes there are those of us who feel that causing physical pain helps to ease the emotional pain we suffer. However, I also like the taste of blood and yes it’s interesting to watch the blood rise to the surface of the skin. And in my case, very slowly. The emotional turmoil I go through on a daily basis is terrible. Catch me on a bad day, I won’t care who you are and I’ll take yer head off. Little things set me off. Years of emotional abuse by my mother (which btw still continues to this day) lays the ground work for all this. On top of my parents wondering if a fever of 106 at the age of 3 caused any damage to my pink/grey matter between the ears.
All in all, people cut themselves for many reasons. Self mutilation knows no race, sex or religion.
Brightest Blessings
NW
I cut to ease the pain. Emotional pain tends to take center stage with me, and when there’s physical to replace it my mind feels at ease.
My whole left inner forearm is scarred up. I don’t really mind; the only scar I regret is the anarchy sign by my elbow, because I don’t want people to think that music influences my behavior. I also have the remnants of the word “hate” on my ankle, and after I broke up with my ex I carved “i hate rob” down my leg.
I don’t cut much anymore, my medication keeps me from being self destructive at all, but yeah, I have a history. When you’re miserable for days or weeks at a time, the calm you feel when cutting is serinity, it is quiet, it is control, and it is peace.
i dont know why i cut myself….i managed to do 30 deep slashes on one arm with a safety pin hehe my friend saw them the next day (curses P.E and wearing short sleeves) i thought theyd gone…then i found the razor blade…..did 10 the nigth i found that
i also find it adddictive watching the blood well up seeying how deep you can do it.. the calm feeling that washes over you as you slowly drag it along your skin…it feels good i have to say it
but im not sure why i do it
my familys kinda disfuncional maybe thats why….i dont cope with pressure well….
anyway
i cant answer the question why we cut ourselfs
I’m going to make this short because it’s painful to think of but so easy to do. I am not afraid to show my scars becuse they are who I am. (Except the one on my leg of my ex’s name. that has to go.) Somethymes the emotional pain is so bad that only the physical will make it go away. At least for me. Just don’t cut to mortally hurt yourself.
The Nymph
im not sure how to say what i want to. im young as well. I used to cut often, but now only sometimes. I always had ways to express myself through writing, acting and music. I was mostly very lonley. I felt i had not much of anything except my famiy, and we arent especially close wich i dont mind. I couldnt see myself getting anywhere. i got better at what i loved doing (i.e writing, art etc.) and started to meet people more like me over the net etc. only then did i cut less. Im still lonley as i dont have anyone like me around here. its a small town. After writing this i still have no idea why we cut but for me it was mostly to do with lonlyness and the fact that i didnt like myself, wich i only thought because no one else seemed to like me. now i have made better friends, they may not be close to me or similar to me. but they like me.
i hope you find your answers some day
i began cutting my self about two years ago.at first i cut my self because it was what i considered punishment for all the things every one else found wrong with me.but now i have come to realize that i enjoy it,it’s a way of showing myself i am still in controll even as my life goes into a down-ward spiral.
*~kari~*
I dont know why other people do it, what their motives are, maybe overwhelming depression? maybe they like it? All i know is that some people do cut themselves. i have my reasons for having done it before..
I first layed blade to skin 3 years ago, but that was to relieve emotional and “physical” pain i was suffering. All because of my family whom i used to live with and my clinically severe depression.
Then, after plenty of mental rehabiliation i stopped for a bit, but found that i like to cut..And i figured, my body is a canvas, i want to make it beautiful. So…i went to a tattoo artist/body artist friend and got into scarification and tattooing.
I still cut, just not to kill myself. I think of cutting/scarification as a releasing of something inside of me…A releasing of life, in a sense, a part of my life i dont want. Since blood is life. I also think of it as a way of beautify-ing. heh. But thats just me.
I know i really shouldn’t cut or do this to my body, because i might regret it later on in life, but for now its what i do. What i am. All i have to say, is if you do cut yourself, or are planning to, dont do it for reasons you will later regret…One of my close friends cut herself to kill (while i was at her house) and while she was dying on the floor she said to me “why did i do this? i dont want to die like this..” Sorry to depress you all. Forgive me.
“To cut or not to cut, that is the question.”
I would like to point out that you needn’t cut yourself physically to feel something to be self destructive. Me? I cannot stand pain, but i do things to get attention like making people upset, in order to FEEL something, or neglecting my body in some crucial way hoping to get sick and die. To me, cutting is like acting out, and they all fall under the classification of self-destructive behavior.
There are myriad ways to be self-destructive.
it’s something i’m driven to do. i need it like air, like water. it’s an addiction, i am an addict. it isn’t something that all of the medication, all of the psychotherapy, all of the hospitalizations could stop. it’s like talking to the monsters under my bed, it never goes away, i can never forget.
First of all I am sorry about your friend….
Second. Why do I cut? Hmmm… in the beginning, it was partially for attention. Which I soon learned that I didn’t want. I hate shrinks. I scare them, and they take everything i say to extremes. Then it was to express the pain i couldn’t seem to express any other way, even with my mediocre talent as an author. Then it was to satisfy my “voices” who seem to be intent on destroying me. [i'm schizophrenic, which, so far, i've been successfully able to hide from everyone but my closest friends. medication doesn't agree well with me.] In the end, it is more like art than anything else though. I do not pretend to understand why anyone else cuts themself.
One day i will get curious and ask one of the preps at my school. I wonder what the answer will be?
One of my friends almost began to cut himself, whether because of seeing my scars [which i don't hide], or because he was curious, i don’t know. He hasn’t because he’s afraid he might slip and sever a vein, and hypocrite that I am, I yelled at him for even thinking about it. Go figure.
Last of all, I am curious about the situation with your “mom”. Am I permitted to pry, or would you rather I not?
Regards,
Kei
I see it as more of a release, a way of calming yourself down before you do something worse.
faet55
I have too been a self mutilator but I am in recovery from this illness and an illness indeed it is.A silent one that not many have ever heard of.It affects millions yet it’s pain is never discuseed.So why do we do it.There are too simple reasons one is an emotional and one a very logical actually medical reason.For the emotional one it is do to the fact that anyone can handle physical pain better so then mental or emotional.I would rather be punched in the eye any day then have one I love says words of hate or harm to me.Now for the medial reason.When your brain senses pain it releases a chemical that acts as a natural volume to the mind and body.Creating a numb painless effect.A state of out of body feeling even in some.So it actually medially is very logical in a way which is what shocked me the most to learn.If you do it once and realize the numbness that can be received by doing so you will want to do again at times of emotional pain because actually it helps.does this mean suggest it?No of course not I have faught hard to learn to deal with things without the numbness of the knife or razorblade.I have another theory on it but it is not a proven one yet the other two are.I also think in reality you may at these times wish to hurt the person who caused the pain but since you can not bare too you instead take the anger our on yourself.Anger turned inward at ones self is usually the main cause of depresseion and in some medial texts is th definition of the word depression itself.I hope maybe this will help by showing not that it’s all right but that there is a reason we do this and we can stop.By coming to grips with how to deal with pain you can find recovery.
the only way to understand it is to do it.
Firstly, condolences.Secondly I cut myself once because of the pain of a few lossess that I have recently had.I’m a 16yr old goth and in some groups it’s the “thing” to cut, for me it is not. Most people cut themselves because of emotional shit that they feel they have no way to express and want help with,some because they like it, cos it feels good and all their friends will like it and all that shit…..
True about the flawless people not giving a shit, no one cared until they saw the marks and scratches on my arms and I now have a name carved into my arm that I shall keep for the rest of my life and I am proud to wear because it and the gift they gave me were things I could not have and so I carry with love and pride their name. I think in a way we do it for both, to be proud of it and also to show the pain of our lossess….. I think that is why we cut our selves…….
May darkness smile apon you…..
I used to cut, it gives you a sudden rush- like you’re letting go of everything-if only momentarily. However, why we do such things cannot be explained-nobody could ever understand us without judging.
Thank you, blessed be
~Nightshade~
xx
My lover is a cutter. Many times I might come home to find her in the bathroom with a razor blade, sketching lines across her lower arm just above her wrist. The scars are still there…a criss crossing of her pain. The reason cutters do what they do…according to my lover…is that it is to feel something. They feel so dead inside, cannot express emotions, that when they cause pain to themselves, draw that blood, they are releasing the pain that is bottled up inside. She says that she feels relief when she does it….almost orgasmic. She may be deeply depressed or incredibly bitchy…she’ll go to the bathroom and begin slicing away….then she’s peaceful and happy again. It’s a temporary solution and not one that I condone. Eventually it will lead to serious health and life problems. My lover has since quit cutting and I watch her still struggly daily with her emotions, but with patience and love I walk her through it. Cutting is a hard thing….the pain runs so deep that it takes a knife to let it out. Be careful, my beloved friends…..this sort of romance is deadly.
Kalindra Blu
First of all: Hi!
I think the reason why, I and other people do that is because of the kick you get out of it. Just cut your wrist and feel the pain. Its something real. Its not a thing an advertisment told you. Coca-Cola didnt say its cool to cut your wrist. Nike didnt make special shirts to show those cuts. Nobody said its cool. Its just an expression, not art. Art is something different. Anyone can cut his wrist, arm, whatever, but not all are able to create art.
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I used to cut myself because I was depressed. You know. Suicide, I hate myself and I want to die. The first time I did it, I was actually just testing to see how well the knife could slit through my wrist, but when I saw the result, how cool all those red slashes looked, going in every direction across both arms, I was hooked. I started carving words (IE. kURT cOBAIN, maRIYN Manson, DIE, 666) just for kicks. I like the scars now. I want to burn the 666 again, so the scar will be more noticeable, but I’m a sucker for self-inflicted pain now. So I really don’t do that stuff anymore.
Personally, its a form of personal ritual. Some people also cut themselves out of guilt or shame, similarly to the Penitent and flagellant mouvements in the middle-ages. There is also a certain form of masochism that goes with it. There as amny reasons as there are people doing it I guess. Its probably a strong way, both on a mental ,spirital and magical way, to connect with yourself. After all, most of the cuttings are done at our own hand. The intimacy could be a strong factor toward hidding the product of our own action. Like masturbation, but on a far more intimate and meaningful scale.
And then there are those who just think its cool. Fools…
A lot of more “primitive ” cultures see cuttings as an important and neccesary part of their existence. Its a proof of manhood, womanhood, decentcy and correctness, kind of like men wearing a tie in the west. Why do we do it? Most people wouldnt be able to give you a satisfactory answer, but then again, wrestling is popular, so you figure it out…
I often ask that. But I cut, I never thought that I would but I do. Nothing is more exhilirating, well at times. The only reason I cut is because I have so much sadness and emotional scars that I cut myself as a way to feel better. I do not do it for attention or to show my pride. To me it is somthing that is automatically done. Now I do not want to kill myself, sometimes I feel like I do but the reality is I am afraid of hurting others. There is sometimes no reason for cutting but we do it for emotional reason. You are not the only one who cuts. Just remember this pain is not enlightment for all, but for some it is a rush of excitement. I do not know if that made sense but you get the idea.
perhaps the most open ended question–why…
by now you know that you are not alone. Its nice to see that I’m not either.
In my case its a way to deal with my emotions. The first time I did it I was 15 and about to start high school. the divorce had finalized the year before. Mom had just given birth to my stepsibling that month. note to self…don’t carve legs during summer if your addicted to wearing cutoffs.
My brother found out and informed my mom. She thought I was on drugs. Explain to me how a 14 yr old who only leaves her house to visit her dad and go to school is going to know how to get those…never mind. I did not turn to it again until this year, when I got out the razor to deal with my beatiful tormenting love again. I’m still stuck in the triangle, and it just got more tangled. Ive cut twice this month. I wanted to sunday, but my boyfriend wont leave me in a room alone. I scare him.
~n~
My fiancee is the same way, he won’t leave me alone in a room for a second. Because I cut so much he worries. You are not alone.
why? hmm.. well, for me it is partly the adrenaline rush, but most of all, it IS to let out all the emotions that are locked inside. i have almost 30 small cuts on the top of my left hand (i’m right handed), and those will always be there to remind how much i hate my “father”; and to remind me never to help him in any way if he needs it because he has never helped me. yesterday my boyfriend pissed me off. i was at his house so i went into his bathroom and pulled the razor blade that i always have with me out of my pocket and started to cut. 1 minute later everything is peachy. he knows that i do it. he hates it. but i cannot stop. its the only way that i know possible to let all of this shit OUT!
wow i just raised my blood pressure writing this. now i want to go do it so i can taste the blood. {i love the way it tastes}
a very distressed:
STROBE
the mixture of pain, beauty and fear. the life on the blade.
I first cut myself over a guy… which is pretty pathetic… he was good lookin, and my first love, and a player. then i cut myself because i was stressed. then i cut myself everynight just because it felt better. then it was for attention. then, and now, i cut myself when my dad degrades me. which is everday, but i only cut about 1 time a week now… in the past two years… i went from cutting once to cutting every day… to not very often… i just handled pressure through bleeding…
now, i am in this terrible state of feeling lost… and it makes my want to cut, but i am getting strong enough to not do it…
everyone has different but similar reasons.
i think it is mostly due to insecurities…
Ok i don’t no what 2 say about this whole fucking mess.in my opinion its completly crazy to cut yourself 4 any reason.i myself xpress my not with cutting but with tattoos witch may in some wierd way b the same but much more excepitabe.not that i care about what is really excepitable hell i am after all the outcast..
People that truely cut themselves, always know why they do it.
I talk to people out there that say they cut themselves, they always brag about how deep the cut is or how long it is. But then they don’t know why they do it. People like this make me so mad, always bragging about their cuts that only look like cat scratches. People that don’t know why they cut themselves are only trying to get attention. They think they’re cool when the do it.
When i cut myself it’s not to get attenion, i don’t go around bragging about it & showing it off. I don’t even like to talk about it. But the reason why i do cut myself is for me to escape my depression. It takes my mind off of what’s bothering me. I like to feel the pain that i inflect onto my body, and when i see the blood come running out of my cuts, i see the answers to my problems and why i’m depressed. When i cut myself it makes me feel better about myself. Everyone has problems, and gets depressed sometime in there life, and they find there own ways to solve it. Well i found mine, cutting myself.
Hey,
You shouldn’t diss people! Everyone has there own problems and reasons for what they do even if there not the same as yours. I couldn’t give a good reason on why I cut myself, but I know I’m not wanting attention. Hell, it’s been in the seventies for two days now and i’m still wearing longsleave shirts to hide my cuts. You just shouldn’t diss people.
… People cut for so many different reasons. For some, it’s that they like the pain or adrenaline, others its the control or the blood… and for those like me, self-mutilation is to show that one still feels… that one is not numb… But anyway, people cut for different reasons… in the end, it might just be because deep inside that’s who they are… or that they’re trying to let who they are flow out…
~Hex
“All truths are for me soaked in blood.”
i think people cut themselves for a couple of reasons…one reason may be that they would like to individualise themselves from everyone else, and by cutting themself, they feel as a part of a small number of people that creating an illusion of a club or them being unique…another reason, that i’ve been told, is to make the world go away…i dunno how that does it but i’ve heard it…people also do it when they are depressed or upset about a certain thing or event…i dont REALLY know why people do it, but it’s fine with me as long as they dont go too deep…ok bye.
~*~Tad~*~
The people I know do it because they are masochists. But you seem to..I don’t know, but what your mother has done to you is worse than locking you away in a cage, it sickens me. Though as to why people cut themselves I dunno, everyone has their different reasons…
you get addicted.after the first time u cut yourself, cuirosity or whatever, you get addicted to it and its really hard to get yourself to stop completely, some people never do.
the people who do it don’t see it as a problem and often they do it when they are totally happy as well as when they feel like their world has fallen apart.
what often deters some peole from cutting(when they’re not deptressed)is the fact that they might have to take off their sweater or roll their sleves up because when people see it,they ask about it or they shout at you for being so stupid.
a few people i know(’goths’) compare their scars to see who has the best or deepest, i personaly dont think this is wierd but i know a ‘few’ people who do
ok i’ll shut up now because i’m rambling.
I SEE YOU CUTTING YOURSELF A LOT
WELL RALLY I CUT MY SELF AND WELL I LIKE THE PAIN IT BRINGS ME! I DON’T KNOW WHY I LIKE IT I JUST DO! IT FEALS GOOD! AND WELL I GUESS ONE DAY I MAY DO THE LAST CUT! THE ONE THAT WEILL BRING ME TO THE END OF THIS FUCKING MISERY! SO YEAH THAT’S WHY I CUT! FOR HOPE THAT ONE DAY I MAY GO ALL THE WAY! ALL THE WAY TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It’s a very bad habit.. after you do it once or twice you just get an urge. Well, that’s in most cases. And also, they could be sadists, masochists, sadomasochists. Hmm.. to make the world go away? You’re better off jumping from a bridge or building.
They don’t do it to be indiviual - they’re either in pain(emotionally), depressed, want attention, or want to taste some blood.
I still get urges, too..
quite simple.
BOREDOM.
also . i happen to be a masochist, i enjoy biting and cutting. started off though because of being fucked over emotionally enough, i became too apathetic to care, to feel emotional pain, so i’d cut myself, i began to enjoy it and it came to be something i now do out of boredom.
I believe that the main reason most people cut themselves do it to feel control over their pain. Sometimes a person is not strong enough to deal with mental pain so they try to decline that mental anguish with physical pain because they can control their pain when they want. But this release from mental pain is not actually a release at all, cutting binds a person to continue cutting to “feel better” and makes them believe that they HAVE to cut to get through they’re day and the cutting only adds more mental scars then physical scars. This is a very hard subject for some people and not easily understood by most…All I have to say is, if you ever run into someone that you think is cutting themselves or know that they are then then please contact someone that can get these people help before they hurt themselves beyond help.
Blessed Be
i cut myself and i cut myself because of this fucked world we live in and this empty society that is supposibly so great and wonderful, i cut myself because if i cannot express myself through violence i am forced to express it on myself. i SO agree with how u said our body is a canvas and we all have the right to paint it. My body is mine and i own it. i should be free to do what i want, wear black, bleed, break bones or die. but still, some how society says these things are wrong, bad, or evil. i dont fucken know why adults think they hav the right to say we what we can or cannot do with our body. cutting to me is the last method of protesting against all the shit we get thrown at us.
i cut myself becuz the one i loved left me and tore me up inside. i did it to get back at her so she will feel my pain. i did it becuz she hurt me so bad my body felt numb, and i wanted to know if i could still feel. i loved to watch the blood run down my arms and watch my ex cry and hurt.it helped me get over her.i still cut though but only becuz it feels so great to get back at all the people that hurt me.