There are days that come and go,where I feel as if I have no reason to live.The best escape is death.Is it possible to want death and life at the same time?Then come the days, that everything works out fine.The says that are meant for survivors.These are the days that we all wish for.Why are they so hard to come across?The days, lately, have been extremely unpleasant.I just feel as if they are calling my death…They pull me down with their overwhelming hatred.What can I do to strengthen my will?These days have taken over my life.These are the days that are ruled by Satan.I slowly begin to lose all hope…Why must these days be so abundant in my young life?I am sixteen, I have not even had time to be a child.I have learned from experiences that I never encountered.I have experienced very few things, but yet, I seem to be well-informed of any imaginable situation…Have I made this out worse than what it really is?This “gift” that I’ve been given –Knowing answers that there aren’t questions…This is something everyone would love to have.Why must I be so emotional lately?My realization has finally arrived.This is all a waste of time.Depression is only for thos who have no control.Why must I be the one out of control?My thoughts, usually organized, have taken me away.My thoughts have taken me to somewhere known as Insanity.My time to go back is now. They need me.Why did it take this to realize they needed me?I thank whatever force it was that made me realize this.Thankfulness is what I owe all of my friends, family, and whoever else.Love is what I feel for all.What more do I soon get to look forward to?