Captivated inside my own mind. Trapped here for all of time.
There are no answers inside that I can hide, only questions
And entities that i fears. Separated from all the rest, where everyone
Else thinks they are the best. This is where I can be sure to fit in.
This is where I can go to make everyone else seem to just disappear.
When I am tired of staring at the same old faces and wondering what exactly they are contemplating
Inside, I just fade away to that distant place. The place known by no other. I will sit back and dream, dream that I can be and do exactly what could make me happy. I will dream, dream that he actually does care like it does not seem. Fading away off to this distant land my entire life seems so damn bland. I look at all the things I wish I had and now realize maybe that my life isn’t all that bad. Though I wish I had some certain things. To hold close to comfort me, that just will never be. I wish I could say things are easy like for everybody else, but they are far from that by now. I wish I could just be the majority for one damn day. To be able to know exactly what it feels like to fit in, to know what it feels like to be one of them. But not all wishes come true.
I’m captivated inside my own mind, where blissful places aren’t that hard to find. I’m dreaming the day away what more is there to say. These perpetual ponderings that I dream of day and night, maybe one day will become reality. Maybe one day all of any of this will make more sense.