father forgive me for i have sined,
is not how my confessions begin.
these are confessions from deep in my soul,
swimming around in a big black hole.
my confessions i know are not right,
but these thoughts haunt me day and night.
thoughts about death and what its like to die,
i sit in sorrow, yet cannot cry.
i know its selfish to want to leave,
but what i go through you wouldn’t believe.
no one see’s or feels my pain,
i have everything to lose yet nothing to gain.
so here it is i must confess,
i will no longer live with stress.
a confession to my best friend,
this isn’t goodbye, this isn’t the end.
i’m sorry i never told you how i felt,
but i’m done playing the hand i’ve been dealt.
a confession to my parents who never even knew,
all the pain and strife i have lived through.
i’m sorry that you’ll never see,
me grow to be what i wanted to be.
a confession to my bro and sis,
the three of you i will truly miss.
and last but not leats a confession to me,
i’m sorry that i couldn’t see,
what life wanted me to be.
i had hopes and i had dreams,
but nothing is ever as it seems.
living one lie after another,
trying in every way not to be like my mother.
so these are my confessions
i have finally confessed,
now at least my soul can rest.