Entries from August 2001 ↓

Black walls surrounding on all sides, sitting on the floor i hold a sphere of light as bright as it seems it still does not pierce the darkness of the walls.The sounds of things moving all around me are quite apparent but they cannot hear me, even if i scream out load at them.I do not know if iam asleep or awake,But a coldness is coming over me like a wave of pain.”Please someone help me the pain is unbearable.I feel as if all sanity is slipping away from me,Emotions cover me like layers of earth as if iam buried already.Screams of tortured pain sound all around me driving me farther into the darkness.”Oh God this is Hell”Sweat poor’s from my body like a river flows to the ocean.”Will i ever wake-up”. “So what do you think”?

Silent was the night it was only us three as we stood between our graves and the sea.

drifting back and froth as magic called back to our pits we all were hauled.
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Sorrow is merely bread for the unfed

Feeding their self-hatred and growing dread

Creeping through their souls as they fluently bled

Drowning their weary hearts in tears they shed

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Rubbing her eyes, she tried to something through all the darkness. After failing to see anything, Mara started to sit up. She found it hard to move at all and hit her head on something hard. Squirming, Mara figured that she was in a confined space, but was just not sure how confined. After a moment, it all came clear to her. The last she remembered, she was lying on top of a casket drinking Mausolem’s blood…

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I know
Sun rises in the west
Sets in the east
I know
Colorless is the hue
Rainbow at the sky
I know
Moon’s illumination
Black
I know
My place
Hellish heaven
I know
Author not me
I know
Reader not you
I know
What I know not!

Cut me open,

watch the seeds spill.

See me crying?,

another empty space to fill.
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In the solemn peace of the night

Was heard a painful scream of fright

And fast through the air it flew

To sleepless ears alerted anew

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Forbidden love, dark desire

setting tortured souls afire

passion and pain, becomes the flame

that burns to ashes our funeral pyre

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I would die a million deaths

Just to hear your soft breath

I would walk a thousand miles

Just to see your beautiful smile
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Will I ever stop crying

Will the memories fade away

Just when I start to forget

Something ignites my mind

A scent, a voice, a grave

Whatever it is, I can’t stop

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I used to wonder how I would live without you

But then one cold day I finally realized

The only wonder I had was how you’d live without me
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You swore to me forever

That we’d be together

You vowed with your heart

That we’d never part
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Crash, Kill, line up the Dead

Banish the voices from within my head

Smash, Wreck, rolling in Pain

Blood drenching me, drenching me like the rain
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The Twisted Playground - Part Three - Tin Soldiers

I awoke between the warmth of blanks, and the softness of a bed. I felt tiny cold fingers gently brush across my face.

“She’s so warm.” I heard a little girls voice say.

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Heaven cries to the heartbeats of heathens. There is a simple gift in waiting for the few to choose. And now as if the horror weren’t enough, there rests an island to consume the abused.

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Collapsing to my knees on brittle ground I gaze at my heart, particle of life, which has been gingerly laid out in front of me. This little particle has been detached from its soul. Continue reading →

I am going to die alone.

My Dad is in prison and

all i think about is am

going to die alone.
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He takes his life

She feels the pain

And all for what?

Theres noting to gain.

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The pope held a press conference on Sunday, instead of holding the usual Christmas mass, to answer to allegations that he imbezzled thousands of dollars of the church’s money in order to have a sex change operation. When questioned, the pope merely stated, “I have sinned against God! I don’t deserve to be a man, I just wanted to fix a mistake that he made!” Rumors of a threesome with the cardinal and the bishop are wide and known, but is yet unconfirmed.

Thick, black storm clouds are creeping into my blue sky.

No one can hear me scream, no one notices when I cry.

Raindrops fall on my back like my tears beat the ground.

Please don’t do this, don’t drown out the sound

Of the birds chirping so sweetly and serene.

I feel nothing.

I’m numb to your touch.

I’m to the sound of your voice.

But I can’t hear anyone else either

‘Cause I’m locked up in this glass cage

And you swallowed the key.

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Sinking farther into the sky,

Seeing more than I want,

Knowing more than I want.
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I am the darkness,

I am the night,

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The wind carries your soul,

Your words seem so strange.

Will I ever understand you?
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I’m not lost,

I just don’t know where I am

And I don’t know where to be.
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Do you know what it’s like

To cry?

Do you know what it’s like

To feel empty inside?
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I suppose you’ll never understand

Why this world hurts my eyes so.

You’ll never be able to take my hand

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I sit there in silence,

Wrapped up in my blanket of sorrow.

The darkness conceals me in its arms.

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I don’t want this anymore,

But I don’t want it to stop.

So I swam in the ocean of sorrow,

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Spinning around in circles,

How dizzy can I get?

This sweet addiction

To the ever dark clouds,
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