Entries from May 2002 ↓

not a good day. never will be a good day. not when it starts off bad. this seems to be the case everyday. Continue reading →

I know I am untouchable, even as I stand here waiting to order my lunch from this miserable excuse of a restaurant. Continue reading →

I am bound and smitten
By a glance
I am yours totally
With a whisper Continue reading →

I wrote this poem about my best friend. Continue reading →

My words are like a jumbbled web of confusion, ever spinning, never ending. Unanswered questions carried by a river of silent tears, adds to the confusion. Continue reading →

Today I opened my eyes only to wonder where you are. It’s been so long since I’ve heard your sweet voice or read you silent words. Continue reading →

A crimson tear slides down a pale white face,
Leaving a stain in its place.
Blood red feathers and broken wings,
Carring misfortune that life brings. Continue reading →

I am she who weeps
night after night
all alone in my head
wishing i was dead Continue reading →

Carved in silence by a hand of pain,
Where every passing anguish leaves it’s trace,
Blown through the gateway of our hopes and fears,
A fragile angel trips. Continue reading →

As i sit here
drowning in my tears
i wonder
how is this real? Continue reading →

To the death of my old ways slipping deeper into a madness of red. Violence takes over my world and destrution is the fate of the old . Continue reading →

In these years of lonely confusion,
Bent down and chained to the ground,
I never understood what had happened:
Where i had lost all control
And what had taken me down.

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They sit there, and they smile graciously. They sit there and they whisper quietly. They sit there and they move their chair when you come near. Continue reading →

WHY? WHY DOES SHE LOVE ME??? I beat her down. I never call, yet she tells me she loves me. I never visit, except to fuck her, yet she showers me with gifts. Continue reading →

She had forgetten to wash her make-up off in the bath again. Her hands plunged in to the cold water of her dirty sink. Continue reading →

I felt sorry for those souls which didn’t want to leave this hell called earth. Continue reading →

I was looking at my mother, laying still in her comfy Laura Ashley bed, oblivious to my problems. Continue reading →

She was where the moon chose to shine. It lit her path, her gothic face; it lit her, she was mine. Continue reading →

This world’s slowly eating me
Crushing and swallowing
So painful
Why are you following? Continue reading →

Nimble digits sunk deep within the folds of tender lips and velvet walls. Little girlie was at it again. Continue reading →

I wish I could just kill ‘m
Shoot ‘m in the head
Then cut ‘m into pieces
And shove ‘m under my bed Continue reading →

Dance with me
In this field of death
Where angels die
And men breathe their last breath Continue reading →

maybe i could cut you
i could probably kill
quickly with no pain Continue reading →

I wear this mask
So my pain won’t show
I wear this mask
So no one will know
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I can never know
How you fell so low,
You speak the words to me,
But they fall to the ground;
I seek for ways to see,
But none I have found,
I want to break your fall,
But can’t break through it all. Continue reading →

Through withstanding time, life has prevailed to

those who wait. Subconsciously, others who work hard have Continue reading →

Hecate of Hell,
I bring to you now an invocation: Continue reading →

Did my cat do that to me,
Or was that nightmare real..
A repeating nightmare,
Always after my mother yells and punches me. Continue reading →

I had to let my thoughts out of my head. They have been spinning around in there for quite some time. Continue reading →

I think I have OCD…I really do. I constantly have thoughts of just ripping peoples heads off, or screaming for no reason. Continue reading →