i just wanted somewhere to rant. this summer i moved out to my auns to get away from my dad and now i wish i was back there.
i hate it here. all my life i’ve taken care of my self and no one realizes this. they think that i can’t take care of my self that i need someone to tell me who and who not to associate with. I hate it. i’ve always found ways to make money buy my own food keep my cloths clean buy my own cloths and all the other basics to survival in teh real world. i hate the fact that now everyone wants to do that for me. i don’t want them too. everyone thinks i want my life to be easier. but i don’t i liked my lifestyle before, i didnt do drugs or any of that other shit cause i knew better then that. i just met someone today that is with out a doubt the coolest person i have ever talked to and he also had such a great mind and vibe to him. my aunt with out ever even meeting him said that i can’t call him(he gave me his number) and i can’t see him. for 15 years i have picked my own friends and have never picked someoe who was a bad infuence or who has turned out to be “trouble”. the other thing that i hate about my new life is that i think my best friend may have tried to kill herself tonight by overdosing on coke(let me clarify the fact that she doesn’t normally do hard drugs only weed but some how this shit got into her hands)and i wanted to call her house to make sure she’s ok and isn’t going to die. well my aunt wouln’t let me. when i told her that my friend might be in trouble and i just wanted to make sure she’s ok my aunt said that thats her parents problem not mine. bull shit. her parents don’t give a shit adn if they do then they don’t notice. my point is that living in a perfect stable family type home sucks. its better to be in a shitty home with problems where no one takes care of you then to be in a home where they care so my that it kills your spirit. i was happy in my old home, but here i’m slowly dying. i feel like a wild bird who’s been stuck in a tiny cage. i don’t want you guys to think i’m some brat whos pissed off cause she didn’t get her way, trust me i’m far from that.but any ways what does every one think of this?
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i find myself in a very simular situation at the present time but i’ve been at my aunts for a year..ask to move out if you can. it only gets worse, either tell your aunt that what she’s doing is not going to fly or you’ll be in hell. believe me it’s not worth it in the long run. move back, i am this week
The Best thing for you to do right now, is talk to ur aunt, tell her to cut it off, or u’d leave her! and that’s what u should do, if she doesn’t get it to her thick head that she should leave you alone… just walk away, it will only get worse. in contrast to u, nobody ever looked after me in that way, so i really wouldn’t know what it’s like, i can imagine it’s hell though…
I had that same problem… so i dont ask anymore i just do it…. if there is any way to do what you need to do to serve your own life in your own way than do it, if she cant see your loyalty than it is her problem that you do what you need to help your friends, she can not deprive us of our one privlage as a teen of being our own selves… ***** up ourselvs
i think that u are findiding it hard to ajust cause u are so used to not being noticed and now all of a sudden people wont leave u alone i think it will just take sum time to settle in but u will get there in the end.
hey sounds pretty bad… i went through somewhat the same sh|t… still am but i moved with my dad and my step mom, i used to live with my mother.I DONT WANNA BE CONTROLLED!
i hate this fuc|
I can really relate to what you are saying, allthough you are worse off than I am.
I’ve always feeled a total lack of control. I could never decide anything by myself, it was always up to somebody else to choose for me, rather than asking me what I wanted.
You’re not alone, pal
Hey, I`v never been in a situation like that, so sadly I cannot relate, but I can imagine what it must be like. All I can say is that you have to stay strong and never lose your spirit, because eventually you will get out of this situation. It won`t be this way forever.