ive thought of suicide but decided if theres a such thing as fate suicide would be a great crime. ur affecting fate dying before ur time u affect millions of others. well u would. dont think i matter much. matter.
how did we kome to be what put his matter together to make us and the night skyy. is the night skyy a mother too u hear of blackholes destroying universes but never of universus being created. but they must create. or it this whole existince. everything doomed to a number. earth will go i knew that the sun will collapse and destroy us. a meteor might hit us. but to think of everything that is space collapsing. it must be inpossible. but how would universus create other universus. there has to be a way to make universus but what about sentient creatures. is there such a thing as an alien. i sit and wonder this as i look out my smal barred window. is it really barred or am i just taking some freak picture of the world… if we all go to heaven then wouldnt heaven get crowded. when u create a body females do u create a soul….. or does a soul inhabit it later…. yes god. if there is such a thing. did make us in his image they say but did he give us the power to create souls. noway. when most robots start to feel there soul. they turn spiritual and say sleep heals writing heals and other random shit that eases there brains. but me i…. i turned i didnt go down that path ive gone lonely. ive gone distant. ive gone numb…. theres all these myths about selling ur soul but. how would u do such a thing. how would some power pay for it. earth money. if ur going to do it ask for power and strength after death. thats when u need ur souls. so if u dont got them ull need that strength. in the after-life if there is one do u need strength or is it just comfiness in heaven. what an illusion. not doing anything is not great. its horrific. u start to eat away at urself as i have started to do… this is the first time my brain has paused in a long time. maybe writing really heals like those people say. or maybe this is all that is me. maybe i was hounding the same thoughts over and over or do i have more complicity. how would one kill. it wouldnt be easy with forensic scientists as advanced as they are. most serial killers are eventually caught and killed. hannibal lector was truly insane yes… but he did have a full proof way of killing. now if u eat the bodies theres no evidence. but if u lack say the…stomach for eating human flesh. buy a bulldawg or other vicious dawg. i hear gun powder drives brains insane. when digested. maybe i should try it…. would it make me crazy. haha. id prolly be more normal then iam now drivin by insanity. when ur drivin by personality. it takes the prick out of pain. lesser minds do not feel pain as accurately. take a flies wings off or a roachs legs do they hurt. do they hold the brain capacity for pain. there more like our computers. u kan rip a computer panal to shreds and it reports to the hardrive as a error. error…. but it feels no pain. kould this be how roachs react to pain. error. cannot comprihend. let this rumage around in ur brain if ur trying to figure me out… what if were just some kind of computer to another higher being. some kind of creation. maybe the creature that created us is made of a diffrent type of element maybe there say rock or metal people that mine up materials that they fuse to make our flesh human flesh there own robots maybe they have blood for water but our water is like there blood to them we could be totally diffrent like us and our metal robots. maybe we will make it so that machines kan combine atoms and matter to make another metal, growing being in its own image then we will be where our creator was when we were created we would be behind but on the same track. but then they would make themselves a robot that reproduces we are creating sentient creatures but our maker did our maker have a maker and have a maker… my mind is a toilet. im swirling information. some are great ideas that spawn other ideas but other is well, shit…. i think this is where i end my outlet to the world today…. im gone, tell everyone.