Well it’s nearing a week and I still haven’t found you
But I’ll never give up the search
No, Because that’s not what friends do.
Hey, remember when we were friends?
They said you were missing
But no one would go out and look for you
I think they don’t notice anything wrong
Since you still come home every single night
How does it feel to know someone else is wearing your clothes
and sleeping in your bed
How does it feel to know you will never be able to touch her again
But she’ll let him.
That You’ll never have the chance to try winning her that big stuffed panda.
But he didn’t think it was worth the effort.
Does it still hurt like it use to when she spoke of that other one.
The one you thought stood in the way of you and her when really no such thing existed.
Didn’t you realize nothing could turn her away from you
she was that devoted
devoted enough to let you go away for as long as it took
She was so stupid to let him you stray
I know it must be cold wherever you are
You know, she only felt safe around you
I’ve postmarked this letter to be sent to wherever they’re keeping you
You know, you can run if you wnat
I remember when we ran away together
Stood by the tree I claimed as ours
I could hear the beat of your heart peirce the night’s air
Ellie would’ve been proud that I fell all over again
I should’ve just stayed the night.
I’ve figured it out.
Atleast, I think i have…you know me.
You couldn’t do it could you?
You couldn’t even look at her after what you did…after what you’ve become.
Felt the shame?
That she realized it ions before you did
They said you were dead
We knew you were going to die…two weeks before she even got on that plane
But I’ll never stop looking
Don’t you wish you were more of who she thought you were
Don’t you realize you are everything she could ever wnat
She loves you so much it’s mad
she loves you even though it isn’t fair
And all you have to do to claim her
All you have to do is come back
But no…instead you make her covet
She thought the world ouf you
So did I
Have you seen the guy they’ve replaced you with?
Wow, he looks just like you
Maybe that’s why she’s convinced herself she belongs to him
she misses You
“devotion causes pain. Pain indicates devotion”
That was always her motto
We’ll she’s so devoted, it’s begun to kill her all over again
she never thought she had anything left to give after that first one
But somehow, for you she found some more
Does it bother you that you’re repeatedly stabbing her wounds?
It certainly never crossed his mind
You loved har as well
I know You did
You should see what you’ve caused
For if you performed her autopsy right now
there on her heart would be engraved your name in bold.
She never stops crying you know.
It’s fucking with her air supply
I don’t know if she’ll ever stop
And I can’t tell if it’s over you or him.
Do you remember talking to her
Words like forever scared her half to death
She never thought she would fall forever
But then again she was sort of an airhead
“forever” use to send her running
and hiding beneath the sheets
Forever was her greatest fear
But she will love you until forever’s closing curtain
And she will await your return.
she’ll wait it out if it kills her
And you know what?
I think it just might start the bleeding