this is the follow up to “parents who should be shot” well when i last left you guys my mom was bitching about everything. . . and i found out why. . . my mom is bipolar . . .
i dont know how many people know what it is but if you dont know then here ya go you will. . . .its also called manic depression. My mom would just flip out of everything it wouldnt matter what it was it might not even effect her at all but she still got mad about sometimes soo mad that she started to cry and she always thought about killing herself, she never wanted to talk about it though. she kept telling us that we were all against her that just wanted to get rid of her, which wasnt true at all!! and then right after she went through all that like 5 minutes later she was happy as can be!! full of energy going around laughing making jokes. her mood swings were sometimes extremly scary when she was the worst i was usually the only one home so i was the one who had to sit there and go through it with her talk her through calm her down which was never easy. . .
i found out the other day that im have it too. . . but mine is much worse and its really hard for me because im young and alot of people think its just emotions from being young but its not its more then that. . .
i always feel like someone is watching me or they have cameras set up to see what i do and when i do it and my freidns just say im paraniod because its one of my family members houses that i always get the feeling at. . . i argue alot with my parents and other somewhat athourity figures. i have very bad handwriting, and i hate when someone trys to set limits for me because im always affriad that i will never be good enough and get the stuff done.
i have really really bad mood swings one minute ill be laughing and having a good time and then before i know im crying over something and i never know what ill cry for hours just for the hell of it i guess. . . .its kinda imbarrasing theres alot more to what i have but i dont think anyone wants to hear the rest. . . i dont like telling people i am bipolar because i dont want then to think im some kinda mentally retard loser because of how it makes me act no one really knows what its like the people who do have dont know how its like for me because i handle things way different then others but anyways i think i’ve confused and bored everyone enough so if have any thing you wanna ask about the hole thing they go ahead or if you think you might have it and wanna talk about it let me know see ya all later
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hey, im sorry to hear that.
im here for ya ok babe?
cat
hey umm i just wanted to know if you found this out recently? i dunno but im suspecting that im pretty bipolar maybe its jux me.. i dunno but no ones willing to take me to the pyschologist and check.. i dont want it to be too late you know what i mean? but i understand wha cha mean.. i jux cry outta no where too.. ehh.. here always if u want to send me mail or post me or sumthing…
signed: missus lestat 07
Life can be hard dealing with an undiagnosed manic depressive. The moodswings can be anyone’s worst enemy. There are what is called extreme bipolars, meaning the moodswings shift in minutes or seconds rather than days or weeks. That sounds like what your mom could be. Meds help supress the swings, and they’ll gradually wean you off them. It’s usually inherited, but severe trauma can also trigger it. Mood stabilizers are what they treat the disorder with and you’ll usually come across ones like Lithium (most studied and common), Depicote, Valium (help with hallicinations as well), and a vast variety of others. Although the side-effects can be pretty bad. Lithium will cause you to drink water accessively and if not monitored properly you can go into a coma and die. Most of the stabilizers will cause you to be very inactive and cause you to gain weight, lose memory, and slow down your motor skills. You will be required to go in for regular blood tests to make sure your levels are normal.
So….yeah. Some of the basic lessons for the hopelessly manic. Good luck to you both.
thank you mas.
and yes i didnt find this out recently and pill arent an oppion for me because im allergic to most things in pills some im pretty much screwed
oh yeah hey cat maybe i will actually be on agian enough to talk i havent been lately with all this stuff thats goin on but anyways ttyl
sweet as babe, hope to chat soon.
cat
It really helps me feel better about my illness to know there are people out there that are dealing with it the same as me. I didnt realize there was anything wrong until my senior year in college. I just thought I was different. I am concidered a rapid cycling type one bipolar with phycotic features. It would be great to talk to others about being or living with some one thats manic depressive.
blood_tears ill talk to ya u can e-mail me or i m on yahoo im :woodnuliketono
aol: panterajimaca
All those of you who think you are weird then please compare yourselves to me. I am a skitsofrenic or I have split personalities. I currently have three different personalities. If any of you have read my profile then you’d know this. So instead of having mood swings I have complete personality swings. So I wouldn’t think any of you were retarded or weird. Except for you Notyou,I think you’re a complete asshole.
i dont consider myself weird although im sure others consider me to be. . . i guess i am but its not like its really my fault that i am bipolar or is it?
of course it isnt! and i don’t consider u weird, i think ur a wonderful person who i enjoy talking to, so please dont put yourself down by saying things like that.
) luv, cat
please take care my friend ( i think u should take up gale’s offer btw, just my opinion
i know what you all are saying. I have a friend with multiple personality disorder. Most of my “friends” shunned her because of her weird behavior. She has 12 different personalities. All of which I can name. She once went to attack the kids i walking down the street, and i had to restrain her. she could get medication, but her mom won’t let it happen. i only see the friend i knew once in a while. the other 11 dominate over her. this caused me to research a lot into mpd, schizophrenia, and bipolar disorder. so if i can ever help, let me know.
Only one of my personalities are violent. He is one hell of a psycho too. Well,to be perfectly honest he is completely sane. He just doesn’t find anything wrong with the spilling of human blood through battle,or massacre,or murder…whatever. I manage to suppress him most of the time. The last of my personalities is peaceful,and acts like a wise old man. He usually takes over when I feel depressed,sad,emotional,etc. When one personality of mine is in control it’s weird. I can still see through my own eyes,but I can’t control my limbs…I can hear the thoughts of my current personality and we actually converse in my head. Weird,ne?
DamnedOne,
he’s not a psycho that short for psychotic. what he is (by what you are describinh) is a psychopath or a personality with anti-social personality disorder. actually it’s not all uncommon for you to be totally lucid about the other personalities. my friend is aware of hers as well.
describing — had to correct that.
MourningStar,your right about his antisocial disorder….except he tends to take anti-social to felonious extremes. *laughs* I think you have it wrong though. He is a demon. He fights for fun.
Before he found me who knows how many people he has killed. I probably do not make sense at all do I?
my dad asked me today if i had a metal problem i thought no shit sherlock what the hell do you think bipolar is but i guess he doesnt know im bipolar so i am going to let him read the thing to it of what all the symptoms are so if anyone else whats themlet me know and i will post them up
DamnedOne, you make perfect sense…but what do you mean “Before he found me”? PS. sorry for misleading you on that story.
your mother is not suffering from bipolar she is suffering from paranoid schizophrenia and you are probably suffering from the same so id have it properly diagnosed before you start up something you can’t handle
it was thanks the doctors at upmc bedford memoriel said thats what we have i wouldnt say it if it wasnt so thanks for trying to call me a liar
im not calling you a liar
its just that i have never heard of any case where someone thats bipolar had mood swings compared to just acting differently when he/she is around a group of people
yeah i thought about that i guess i shouldnt have put that little coment at the end but its done and over with but yeah its alreayd been diagnosed by the drs and if you read the sympotoms thats one of them
that’s what bipolar is, a form of depression with serious mood swings that shift from extremem highs to extreme lows. the shifts can happen over a period of weeks or a few seconds.
alright i see your point
ill retract my statement
hey i can really relate to wat u wrote
well i dont think im biopolar but i do get alot mood swings. well thanks for writing this. it feels good knowing your not the only one. well if u ever wanna talk email me
NEVERMIND…FORGOTTEN WOT I WAS GOING TO WRITE.
t’was the nite before christmas,
and all through the house,
everyone felt shitty, even the mouse,
with mom at the whorehouse,
and dad smoking grass,
i had just settled down,
for a nice peice of ass,
when out on the lawn,
there arose such a clatter,
i sprang from my peice,
to see whats the matter,
i looked out the window,
and saw a big dick,
i knew right away,
it must be saint nick,
he came down the chimney,
like a bat out of hell,
i knew right away,
the fat fucker had fell,
he filled up the stocking,
with doobies and beer,
and a big rubber dick,
for lexus, the queer,
he went up the chimney,
and blew a big fart,
the son of a bitch blew my chimney apart
he laughed and he cursed,
and he flew out of site,
screaming piss on you all and have a hell of a night!!!
okay, i hate to admit it (and not insult to lexus intended). but that was actually funny. wow, see what happens when you use your own brain and not notyou’s.
well there was no way in hell “insert wrote that him self theres no way!! it might have been wrote about him at first but its not an original
i think i’ve heard a similar rendition somewhere else. now he’s putting it on almost every post. it’s getting redundant.
yeah it is
im a poet, U KNOW IT, im high!!!!!!!
insert although it was funny(no offense lexus) you should not be to cocky because im sure that was not made by you
i have also heard a diff rendition somewhere else but not on darkness
I think Damned One is full of shit. I highly doubt that they have that “psychotic” personality. I could say that I have schitzophrenia, too…it doesn’t mean I DO, though, does it. I do believe Mourning Star, however. They know what they hell they’re talking about. Damned One sounds like they’re just making shit up.
To Hell with you. You don’t know me. And Insert did not write that himself. I have seen it on numerous web sites on the internet. It is funny though.
No offense to you Lexus. The part of you in there he just added in.
WOW!! we have alot in common my mom is alot like that to she has so many damn disorders i dont knwo but she does have bipoler/manic depressive and shes always acting liek you said your mom did and i was the one always ending up taking care of her adn shit you know she has tried to kill herself many times adn she is not a very good mom she always broke my promises and always fought with my dad and so they got divorced and shit and i also found out i have bipolar/borderline there both almost the same thing and tis hard because when you have bipolar people think your retarded adn shit well actually i am very smart i think liek you said its because im afraid im not gonna meet the expectations of what people think about me and im always thinking im not good enough for anyone and that im ugly and a bitch you know just so you knwo theres others out there like you
I have a question to ask… now this may seem stupid but whats is your first name lexus?
the only reason i am asking is because you remind me of someone i know
well who are you?
My name is tony
sorry that it took so long to post this but ive been very busy
its ok, . . . where are you from?
florida, and you?
pa
oh ok then never mind i just thought you were someone that i might have known
doesnt seem like it, sorry to disappoint you
hey i get what your saying my dad;s bipolar an i think i may have it too. some times i can just be as happy as ever then someone says one little thing and it just totally sets me off for no reason whatsoever. sometimes it really scares me. but i don’t take any meds for it though i just deal with it . my friends don’t know avout it . like when i loose control they just think i have some serious anger manage ment issues. my mom makes me go to a counsler though the last one i went to pissed me off so bad i almost strangled her do death. i would have to but the nurse came in and pried me off her. that was when i was about 11 1/2 now i take most of my anger and shit into writing.