I cant deal with life anymore it hurts to be hear. I have lost everything. so many people in my life has died or left me.

I learned not to let anyone in I closed my heart off to everyone, friends, family, boyfriends. I feel out of place in school or life in general. I feel like no one out there understands me.
I lost my father in an accidents, thats when i restorted to cutting.

It relieved some of my feelings. It made me feel the pain on the outside then on the inside. I still cut. the only thing that is keeping me from sliting the veins totaly is my mother and brother i know they couldnt deal with anymore pain.
Some of my friends cut too but they stopped and they tell me to stop but I cant. I dont know what to do.
I just need to get this out of me and releive some of this stress. Please feel free to comment. thanks

I cant deal with life anymore it hurts to be hear. I have lost everything. so many people in my life has died or left me.

I learned not to let anyone in I closed my heart off to everyone, friends, family, boyfriends. I feel out of place in school or life in general. I feel like no one out there understands me.
I lost my father in an accidents, thats when i restorted to cutting. It relieved some of my feelings. It made me feel the pain on the outside then on the inside. I still cut. the only thing that is keeping me from sliting the veins totaly is my mother and brother i know they couldnt deal with anymore pain.
Some of my friends cut too but they stopped and they tell me to stop but I cant. I dont know what to do.
I just need to get this out of me and releive some of this stress. Please feel free to comment. thanks