diary-
You know how sometimes the world is fine in one second and the next….. its all destroyd? Thats what today was like. All of a sudden my mother freaks and hits me. She tells me she’s going to send me to D.H. and sell my horse. I feel i did nothing. If I did, I wish she would’ve told me. Then I wouldn’t have done the things I did. I ran away today.
I jumped out my window and I ran. At first I was going to the barn where I boarded my horse, but then I decided to go to my friend jennifer’s house. She was home and let me in. I told her what had happened and she siad that I could spend the nite. So I made plans to stay the nite and then we went to the barn to go horse back riding. We had fun for a very short while, but when we went back. I called mom to tell her I was allright. She just yelled and said that she decided to kicked me outta the house. I creid…… i cried for hours. then my other friend holly come over and said she wsa spending the nite. I told her what happened and she didn’t care at all. I could tell she didn’t. i wanted to call my sister, to pick me up right? So I call dad and ask him for the number, you know what he says? “I’m not giving you the number cus you got yourself in this mess and you get your damn self out yourself!!!!” I was so mad I threw the phine across the room. (keep in mind it wasnt my phone) so i appolagised to jenn. Then i just started ballin so hard I passed out. I was so scared. I had no where to go. I woke up crying still. I wanted to kill my self and I tried. But they stopped me. And an hour later mom calls me back and says shes picking me up, so good news. When I get home, not a word was spoken. And I know that they will be sending me away. So here I cry, still wandering. What did I do diary? What have I done that was so wrong, that I deserved this fate? I would ask the so-called “god” but I am not believer. And if he does exist, FUCK HIM!!!!!!!! I am going to kill myself diary. Mabe not now…… but I will. I can feel it, its like an anker that grows. I want to die, but I want to live aswell……. its a no win situation. Yet another time I wish I was a vampire. Yes I do believe they truely exist. So as and ending to this entry, if there are ANY true vampires out there…may I please be apart of your clan?
-jess-
PS: people if u dont like this entry; ….KISS MY FUCKING BARE NAKED, PALE ASS!!!!!!!!!