Lost

im a 15 year old lesbian …which makes it hard enough to find a girl to date due to the fact there are not many around,i managed to find one who lives about 5 hours away in car and 1 in plain,around where my cuz lives,and i love her to death,iv done so much…raising grades *which was VERY hard*

…saving money..sweet talking to both of our parents…to go see her,but latly iv been thinking alot,maybe 2 much and i needed tim away from her,but in the mistake i made, i broke up with her..and after thinking ,i thought,why let the little things get in the way of what i love so much,but,she dosent know now,and as i asked her back out she said maybe..she has to think about it,which i can understand,but everyone knows she loves me,and everyone knows i love her,and shes told me since we broke up she loves me and she wants to be with me ect…but why is she making this anwser take so long….anyway….im lost,i dont know weither to keep asking her,or let it go….what a world oh what a world…i just need advice…or a new g/f..lol