Where am I?

I don’t know where I am no more and I don’t know what to do. Should I run again? Should I try killing myself again? Should I get help? what help? No one likes to talk to me cause I am just another person that supposiably wants atteion. Trust me if I wanted atteion I would have killed myself. I love my mom more that anyone she has been there for everything. I hated my mom last year for so many reason but this year my bestfriend was just taking by DYFS and I now longer can see him and I lost the only love in my life and she has helped me so much. I cry for hours and days. Its like I am a broken faucet and it unfixable… I need help. I need to feel loved I want people to stop hurting me most of all i want to be found…….. Where am I?