Entries from February 2004 ↓

I’ve died a thousand
Death
For you
Because of you
(while) With you
Without you
To only realize
That you don’t care

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This should be posted under “gothic.”

This is my first post, so bear with me.

My Feelings on the Matter

There are a few ways to classify someone as a “goth”: the clothes they wear, the music they listen to, or their mindset. The most commonly used way of putting someone in this category is by looking at their clothing, and yeah, a lot of goths do wear a lot of black, but so do other people. What others don’t stop to think about is what kinds of thoughts influence the style of dress. Many times, the thoughts in one’s mind take an effect on what their clothes look like or what kind of music they listen to. Some people may have troubled lives, some just don’t like the world they live in, or some just don’t care for conformity. I think most goth influence is in your mind, not so much in your appearance. I’m an 18-year-old goth, and a good deal of my wardrobe shows it. Not so much that most of my wardrobe is black, but I wear dark or neutral colors and some of my T-shirts have sayings that are no less than the truth. Most of the influence is in my mind though. I’m not always a cheery person, and most people around me just don’t seem to get it, my parents especially. Then again, I don’t like to talk about my problems with them, they’re not much help. I also see the world for what it really is. I’m sure some of you might agree with me when I say the world if full of chaos and destruction. Yes, I know, there are good things that happen in this world, but it just seems like that so many more negative things happen than positive. You hear about it all the time: murder, rape, corruption, terrorism, the list goes on and on. It’s not just some wonderful place where people can be carefree, but a lot of people tend to think they can be. I know some of you won’t agree with me, but I don’t really give a shit whether you agree with me or not. This is just how I feel on the matter. These thoughts aren’t quite complete, but they are what I initially put down on paper.

I will be the light that binds you
I will be the soul that you sing
I will follow, right behind you
I will be behind everything
I wil revel in and reveal you
I will supplicate to and tether will
I will say a prayer before I deny you
Always. I will.
I will be the dream that blinds you
I will be the swollen Nil
I will be the love that finds you
And keeps you hating still

Back in the 14th centery we were drawn together by the cold winter nights when all was young quiet and still.Hate could not harm us in the sence that our love grew stronger each day that the sun would set and fall.Still to this day our hearts are bound to one another hopeing to be returned to each other once more.Thou the days grow short and the nights grow long and my love for you still lingers in the fog and mist of our past time…………….