Entries from March 2004 ↓

Aviva arose from the casket she lay in. The darkness was concurring the earth, providing a shield of night as a form of protection to the old vampire. She made her way to the glassless window 4 stories up in the old abandoned apartment building. Continue reading →

I see the lake
it’s see’s me.
I hear it’s whispers
“I want thee.” Continue reading →

I’m in darkness now. I see dim visions of that girl. She is looking down on me. I don’t think that she completely killed me. I am slowly breathing, deeply. The funny thing is, I finally get that kiss that I have been wanting. I can taste the blood that she drank from me. “Don’t worry. Your story doesn’t end here. I won’t let it,” she says. Continue reading →

How can people be so cruel,
in a world that’s cruel enough,
meanful and hurtful things flow from person to person, Continue reading →

Every spring people end up missing. Days later their bodies are found, drained of blood. In this small town, no one is ever safe, not even me. One dark and cold night I went out with some friends to go to a party. We disobeyed our parents when they said “no going out passed five.” We didn’t care, we just wanted to have fun, before we die of bordom. Continue reading →

Black is good black is bad,
black is everything that is sad
Black is sorrow black is pain Continue reading →

Time has come,
For you little one,
To put the kinfe to the test,
Start with your wrist, Continue reading →

I sit there and listen to everybody complain. Some are complaining about there parents never letting them do anything. others are saying that there to mean b/c they never let them stay up past 12 p.m and others are complaing about there clothes or siblings. Continue reading →

There’s a little cavity in my heart.

Everyday, it grows a little bigger, until every beat is like a blow to the chest that leaves me gasping in pain.

I don’t know when it started. Continue reading →

Chaotic threads of thought rip through my mind,
boiling and seething with madness.
The sharp bite of pain ebbs and flows as my life’s blood
drains in darkness. Continue reading →

Society is plagued, it’s been said before… “The person is smart but the people are dumb”, conformity riddles the never ending agenda of daily life along with the violent but hushed death of free thought. The few keeping it alive are vastly outnumbered by modernized mindless zombies. Continue reading →

The buzzer of #216 rang throughout the tiny apartment. Samantha could hear it fine even though she was in the bathroom with the door closed. Wrapping a towel around her not so dry body, she quickly ran to her door to answer the ring. “Who is it?” she asked into the intercom. “Savvy.” said the familiar, soft voice of a friend. Automatically Samantha pressed the door release button, allowing Savannah to enter the main door downstairs. Continue reading →

Typical night for a girl like me. Right? Or so I thought…. I was on my way to a brand new nightclub that had opened not too long ago. The name of the nightclub attracted me. It was named The Vampire Coven. The name sounded so alluring that I decided to go check it out. Since I wanted to dress to impress, I decked myself out in a small black bib halter together with a tight black leather mini-skirt, fishnet stockings, and my killer boots. As I waited outside the club, I felt a chill go down my spine. I shivered although it wasn’t cold outside. It was as if someone were watching me. Waiting for me…. Continue reading →

I remember the Arguement as vivdly as the screen infront of me. I remember the power of his voice blasting through my ears like a black night swarming over a beautiful day. And I remember the force of his hand slamming against my body. I remember the pain that shot through my body, the shocks that felt like a million knives stabbing my face, and tearing it apart. I hate him Continue reading →

we were happy, two kids in love, only a month apart in age, you would do any thing to keep me happy, and me you, i would even kill for you, you knew that, you said i would never have to, but you gave me to chouse, Continue reading →

There was once a girl, who had no name

Ingnorance and hatred gave her no shame

And because of all of this she had no one else to blame Continue reading →

I am scared. Scared for my pain, the pain of others that I have hurt. I lay on my side on the small twin size bed, thinking about how I could end the pain. End the pain of insanity. Rid myself for my own well being. For everyone elses happiness. But then I think harder. Why should they be happy? They never did anything for me, except teach me how to hide. Hide from all of the good feelings of love and smiles of happiness. And all of the bad feelings to which I had already succumbed. Continue reading →

I feel as if I’m drifting away,
insanity seems to be were i stay.
All alone in the dark,
my own blood makes its mark. Continue reading →

Controlling… overpowering…
Life is always demanding
Of me… I think I am blind… Continue reading →

“Want to have a drink or, go up stairs or what?”
“Um a drink then stairs.”
“Ok” pours him a glass of wine and pours me some too, “well we can take the drinks upstairs”
“Your eager” he laughed, with the softest and kindness laugh I’ve ever heard come from him. Continue reading →

Thomas was disgruntled to say the least. His sex life wasn’t the greatest in the world. He had watched lots of porn flicks and saw so many things he wanted to try, but he could never get his girlfriend Kate to experiment. He couldn’t believe what a prude she was. Continue reading →

I close my eyes
You enter my mind
Your hands in mine
We smile we talk we’re content Continue reading →

I call
You wont pick up
I write
You wont reply Continue reading →

Grotesque
Sick
How do you bare to look at me
I stand in front of my mirror Continue reading →

Hot shower
The scalding water beats down on my back
Breaking and burning Continue reading →

Forget
Forgive
For live
For love Continue reading →

You messed with my brain
you toyed with my heart
I thought it was nothing Continue reading →

Choke
Cough
Red
Unforgiving and Forbade Continue reading →

Over the edge
So far gone
Cant get me back,
Cant come back, Continue reading →

I used to think that all of my friends just used me and my parents hated me. I knew that, the parent part. All of my friends would say,” its okay amber, just relax, you’ll get threw it.” But i knew that they all rather me die, not exist, pretty much im just the living dead to them. Continue reading →