It’s so cold. It is so cold. I’m freezing.
Peel away the outer layer
Ice turns to fire for comfort
Cut away what’s on the outside, expose what’s within
Can’t stand the heat, the unfortunate combination
of the two extremes
Shed the skin
Liquid vanishes, there’s nothing left
Pick up the blade. Pick up the blade.
I need the pain. I need the pain.
I need the pain to forget how much I let you down
It’s a whole new dimension of self hate
Drag the edge across this selfishness
Eliminate. Eliminate.
It’s too late to undo
Crimson sorrow and regret flows rapidly just for you
Not even this can bring you back…
Remorse is draining silently out of me
Punish. Punish. Kill it; neglect
Faster, I’m being too gentle
Slash fiercely at my dispair
Hurry, I can’t handle knowing; this is all my fault
My breaths are getting shallow, my sobs being lulled by the becon of unconsiousness
When that sets in i’ll be half way there
but it’s not coming quick enough
Warm reality pools around me
I can’t bare the loss of you
so I will cease to exist
I’ve lost all control
I let you down. I let you down. I let you down
I’m so sorry…
I am so sorry…
You were the only one…