Abandoned

I despise you
I adore you
I can’t decide
My mind is writhing with these thoughts
So entangled in my contemplation
I wanna scream at you
I want to hold you
I wish I’d never see your face again
But I know I can’t live without you
How can something that felt so taintless
Make me feel so regretful
Trying to figure out
What’s wrong and right?
Should I hate you ‘cuz you deserted me
Or should I be happy ‘cuz you are