Well here is something that isn’t heard often, I’ll tell something of myself
I get these times when I’m completely alone, like now and all so very too often, then realize I have no one. Family is to far away and those that aren’t I’m not on the list of important thing to think about. You see since I was old enough to think for myself I was also looking after myself. So they all assume I can do it all and I’m left to my own devices. Well anyway during these times when I’m sitting home alone. I realize that things have got to change and think of the way I’m going to act in future to change them. I do for a while but nothing changes so it goes back to normal, well I always go kinda mental in the loneliness and do something stupid. , Because at that particular time I can do anything. I already have a lack of emotion the past few years but at these times it is worse, I fear nothing and pain is non existent. What I fear for is the next time it happens, which it will, and as it seems to increase in intensity every time, what will happen in the end. Nothing ever changes no matter how hard we try, we have to wait until something around us changes, then we have a chance to escape