have you ever felt so all alone that if you were to die, right here, right now, no one would notice? no one would be worse off? or worse yet, they knew yet didn’t care?
have you ever cried out in pain, in search of help, hopeing someone, anyone would come to your aid, but no one ever did?
how do you deal with the pain of life, when it hurts so bad to even breathe, to open your eyes to a new day… aday with even more misery waiting for you?
i have no one. i am alone. there more i slice through my own flesh in an effort to release some of this pain, the more i hurt, because it is obvious of the hell i am in, yet no one can help. no one even tries. the blood flows so effortlessly from my arm, carrying with it some of the pain. sadly, there is nothing i can do to relieve all that i feel, i must carry its weight upon my shoulders.
finally i find love, true love, only to find it is just out of reach, enough to push me closer to the edge. i see him, the look in his eyes. i know he is aware of the pain i feel and at what lengths i will go to in order to stop feeling it. yet he does nothing. nothing but add to my misery. how is it that i am to go on this way? for how much longer? does anyone have an answer? anyone? please…
i dont have any answers for you…but i know that i feel this exact way..and for so very long. but i also know that it helps to have someone to talk to. someone who understands…so if you need someone to talk to..im here. i know how it feels BluEuphoria@excite.com -M
yes i have cried out in pain. i don’t have ne1 either. i don’t have an answer for you but just live on till the day u can’t take it ne more. do something u wished to do then go on with it. i sound like i support suicide but i don’t. only if u really feel that way then nothing can stop u. keep writing if u find a way.i loved ur post. thank you for posting it. better yet, thank u for existing.
im sorry. i have been in a similar situation. i cut very badly. deeper and deeper. i wish i would hit the vein. i really do. still i dont thik i would go to the extreme. someone loves you. there is someone out there just wait. if you have pateince
yea i know how you feel…..
i use to feel excatly like you do….
i thought no one cared but i realized that my friends did care i just needed to show them that something was wrong….
and i still feel that no one cares for me but….. i know they do and i care for them too. they do what they can for me and i do what i can for them. so maybe you do have someone you just don’t know it…..and if i’m wrong i’m sorry and i hope things get better cause i know that’s what i want for me and my loved ones for things to get better……
for all of you who responeded to this that i posted, i thank you. i have been lost for quite a while and it took all this time to get around to reading your responses, all of which made me feel not so all alone.
in darkness,
patricia