Aware of No-thing

Such long and painful day but it does not matter… when i get home and into the shower… i forget even if just for alittle while. i have a permanent sadness because i am always so alone but i tend to ignore what i feel so i suppose it does not matter. my sadness affects the back of my head…

Such long and painful day but it does not matter… when i get home and into the shower… i forget even if just for alittle while. i have a permanent sadness because i am always so alone but i tend to ignore what i feel so i suppose it does not matter. my sadness affects the back of my head… often i get headaches and bleed from the nose. Maybe because i think so much… about nothin. in the shower though i stop thinking and i want to cry but this time i cannot… this is usually the only place i get to vent but instead i had a sick feeling like i was about to throw up. my head hurt i had to kneel in the shower… i have the feeling that there is someone else out there more lonely than i and i feel sorry for them… and i laugh at them for being so much more pathetic than i. i am my only comfort… and lately these days i have felt that comfort. sometimes i wish i had friends. but i would just hurt them then hurt myself. i laugh at myself alone and cold in my shower… now i almost feel sad for the person who is more pathetic than i. everyone has a sadness and mine pains me so much… so much loneliness… but it does not matter. in the shower i can cry no more like i used too, my sadness has drifted so much to the point where it has become useless to cry. the space i inhabit… feels like i am wasting space. there is little to comfort me… but i try so hard to cheer myself up… but sometimes i am deaf to my own cries for help. some people are just meant to be alone…

By YARO

I have led a life o f violence... but now i am at peace... others question but i am sure...ask a question and i will answer and i never lie.

14 comments

  1. That is sad, but it was painful to read. Have you taken a grammar class or anything of that sort? Don’t use so many periods…………………….. < example. Don’t repeat yourself, it makes the story boring. Other than that it was good.

  2. … rather than writing: (in thought) i prefer putting dots as an expression that i am thinking. i do not want to upset simply educate. every thing i type is truth and i am not here to make a story interesting or boring… that is all.

  3. What you wrote was meaningful, but if you want to get comments that are telling you to write more and that you are good, then it would be best to write it correctly. You’re a great writer, but no one is going to choose something with poor grammar and spelling over something extrodinary.

  4. i never fish for good comments… i do not care if people enjoy or hate my work. i am not trying to get published here… this is where i can express myself and secrets i can never tell elsewhere. if you want to read something extraordinary you should try the library i hear they have good stuff there. have you read: Sabbaths Theatre? thats a good one. you should start there.

  5. Well, it just sort of bothers me knowing that people who can actually write good shit, choose to make it look like shit. I agree with you that this is a place to express yourself through your writing because I do the same myself. The library has nothing compared to what this site has. This site is also known for it’s great writers, and it would be nice if it was kept that way. I didn’t say that your piece sucked, I told you it was good. If you are going to post something on here, you’re going to have to expect to see comments from every point of view. People here will tell you what they think of it, not try to make you think it’s really good if it honestly sucks. That’s why they have commenting sections on here…

  6. What should I say, LIFE IS BITCH AND THEN YOU DIE… Get use to it…

    It might be easier to go trough it!

  7. Free expression…though when one chooses to use this condemed they are, by word or thought, perhaps without meaning certainly…think on what it says, the tone its in, lest unknowingly, you commit this greatest sin

  8. hmm… is Twisted Thought’s full of shitt or is it just me… maybe it is just me. would you care to further enlighten me with your fractured philosophies? hmm on second thought… never mind… i am not here to get a brain excercise.

  9. do excuse me, i was completely out of this world when i typed that and you are right, it is full of shit i apologise profoundly for subjecting you all too that

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