I’m reaching that point way past insanity. Past all the feelings of anger, hate, envy, sadness, and joy. I can no longer turn back. I can only move forward, towards the deep, dark, abyss of death. I will soon be rid of life.
Life in itself was hell. The abyss of death which I am so rapidly approaching seems to be a paradise. Filled with an emotion that is so great it cannot be described by any words, I find myself heading towards a light. It gets brighter and brighter as I see my life flashing before my very eyes. At that very second that I let go, let go of everything that has kept me alive for so many years, the light starts to fade away. I just as quickly find myself in my own room, surrounded by a puddle of blood. It was not my time to go. I have a chance to make myself better, to be that girl that everyone has always expected me to be.