Cage

It’s kind of like I’m locked in a cage, blind as a bat, the keys lying somewhere on the cage floor. You’re all on the other side of the bars, trying to tell me where to go to find them. But everyone on the other side of the bars is telling me different things, and confusing me.

So either I learn how to drown everyone else out a listen to one person, or I just keep feeling my way around until I find the keys, and once I find them, I have to find my way back to the door without dropping them.

I’ve been placed on anit-depressants… They’re working for the most part… But I still want to just.. cry. Always… The thing about this place.. is that people care. People here know. They understand. They actually get it. My comprehension has turned to shit because of the pills I’m on… I can’t understand anything. My boyfriend’s parents were trying to explain a cardgame to me last night… all I heard was “Blah blah blah blah blah.” I wanted to pay attention.. but I didn’t get it. And his dad is one of those… super-careful paranoid kind of dads… I just… wish I knew what to do. Whether or not to keep looking for that fucking key… I don’t know… I want to just give up…

You guys undertand.. what d’you think?

-PAiN-

7 comments

  1. only you can decide whether or not you want out of the cage. some people are perfectly content right where they are. some don’t even realize that the cage is locked because they never look for the key. they are secure in themselves and don’t care whether they can get out or not.

    my advice? if you want out, get out. keep looking for that key, and know that i’ll be here at darkness if you need to talk.

    best of luck to you.

    –mourning

  2. i know what you are talking about. i am like you only im not on pills or anything because i try not to let it out so that people like my parents can see. i guess that you could say that i am like in that cage as well only i have many ppl trying to make me go one way but i am trying to to listen because i want to find it by myself. with out anyone knowing that i want help finding it. ill be here to talk.

    ~~LuvLessWanderer~~

  3. i know what you are talking about. i am like you only im not on pills or anything because i try not to let it out so that people like my parents can see. i guess that you could say that i am like in that cage as well only i have many ppl trying to make me go one way but i am trying to to listen because i want to find it by myself. with out anyone knowing that i want help finding it. ill be here to talk.

    ~~LuvLessWanderer~~

  5. Exactly… See.. I love you people.. Heh. You all understand perfectly. Right now.. I’m positioned in a corner of the cage, not really trying too hard. Everyone’s screaming at me “Crystal! Get up! FIND THAT FUCKING KEY!” And I’m just laying back, trying not to let show how aggrivating their voices are. And I’m grinning in my ignorance, keeping quiet… taking my pills like a good girl, and not saying much anymore.

    Thanks you guys. Knew you understood.

    -PAiN-

  6. There is no one key to a better life. You must stop looking and bend the bars.

  7. Perhaps you’re right. I never did find that key… But I did find a way to slip out of the cage… Things right now… are going great, amazingly enough. I don’t know for sure if this is happiness… but I like it.

    -PAiN-

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