Chemical Prison Bars

Once more ive been offered help, this time in a little cream & green pill called Prozac…..So im taking it.I think the only reason they give us this is so we have something to OD on. All it does is supress the real me and replace it with some zombie like character that is far from me.

I dont like it, i hate it because it makes me false and it replaces the mask i previously hid behind with chemical prison bars. Its poisoning the person i used to be, ill never be that person again. But right now the side-effects are killing me its so painful. Ive had arguments with everyone, vowing never to take Prozac because i saw what it did to my family……but im not as strong as i previously thought. This might be the last writing from the real me, as for all of you dont let them help you….help yourself without hurting others.
goodbye
Laurie

By downwardspiral

Birth,life....awaiting death

11 comments

  1. Nothing can replace who you really are. your caring and you listen when no one else will, and wateva is taking u away from who you really are you have to be strong enough to resist it. life is full of struggles as you know and if you ever need strength just talk to me i’m always hear to listen
    cath

  2. hmmm You just listed every reason why I stopped taking my meds…and aside from the very rare, and sort of freaky relapse, I’m doing perfectly fine with out the accursed things.

    I’m actualy better off…when you’re on them and forget to take one, you have a day ten times worse than the days before you started taking them…does that make any sense at all?

    ~n~

  3. HI, my I ask how old you are. What I mean to say is do you have a say in this matter. I’ve been on and off meds for a long time. Its a horrible circle. I agree with nevarsong. Its seems that after taking the pills your worse when you quite for even a day. If I can ask why they perscibed these, depression maybe? Be strong, and don’t let anybody push you into something you don’t really need.

  4. dont give up im bipolar and schizoaffective, its a bitch but im still alive.

  5. same here. Laurie….you don’t have to take them. You don’t…..they tried to keep me on them….all the meds i was on just made me stupid, slow, and empty…..please….as blood_rose says…you have the right NOT to take them. Don’t be a zombie….you can fight….you’re not as gone as you feel.

  6. hell yeah man, thats why I stopped. it made me feel like a fucking fake. i relized it was better to take it because it did kinda help mask my problems!

  7. If they are not helping you, stop taking them. It isn’t worth losing yourself. Everything in life is a fight, you are fighting yourself to take them and you are fighting everyone else no to take them. You just have to decide which fight is more importaint to you.
    1) Take the pills. They make you feel fake, zombie like, and jumpy.
    2) Don’t take the pills. Feel like yourself again, make others mad.
    3) Act like you are taking the pills. Feel like yourself, make others happy because they think that you are still taking them.

  8. hey u. Ok im never ever going to give up on you. Youll survive and be stronger because of this experience.
    Like I told you Im always gonna be here for you.
    No goodbyes.
    RachXxX

  9. I know exactly how you feel. I have the same problem – I’m afraid of losing myself, the part of me that I really feel is my primary ego. Even though this ego is depressed, sad and psychotic I don’t want to let it go because it is who I am. But depending on who you are and what your illness is…. It’s up for the individual to decide, there is no list of answers here. You have to decide for yourself – what makes you feel the best? Try to be strong and reasonable – think about it thoroughly, don’t jump to conclusions. I hope it will be alright. Good luck.

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