Darkness
I’m currently dating a great guy, his name’s Jamie, he’s a year older then me (18) and I swear he’s the best thing that has ever happened to me. It’s just sometimes he says or does things that make me feel unloved, unwanted. Sometimes he can be so cold. I’m going to be leaving here and moving to go to college which is about an hour and a half away. I know it doesn’t seem like a lot, but I’m used to seeing him everyday. I just want some advice, on what to do, maybe some thoughts on why he’s cold. Some friends say I put up with too much with him, he has cheated on me once, and even though I have asked him not to he continues to mess around with drugs (I used to be addicted and I can’t be around them). I know that this may come out bad, but I don’t know if I ever really loved him, sometimes I feel like he’s just using me for sex (I never say no unless I have my period) I know this is prolly coming out this huge jumble, I just want some advice, should I stay with him? I mean there are so many good points about him, when ever I’m down he does anything to make me smile (I’m a manic depressent) but then sometimes when I need him the most he’s not there for me. I don’t know, I hope this all comes out all right, I’d really appriciate some input. Thanks xoxoxo
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