I find myself crying. Not because I’m hurt or because I’m sad, because, well, I don’t know why. I never used to cry like this. Maybe it’s because I’m going crazy.
We fight more now too. He doesn’t understand why I cry, and I don’t understand why he’s upset with me. It didn’t used to be like this. I wasn’t really happy, but happy enough and I was content with that. I don’t know what changed.
I see a therapist and have been put on antidepressants. I always mean to tell her things. The real things that bother me, but I never do. Why is it that I can’t confide in anyone? I want to so badly, but I’m afraid that they’ll think I’m crazy.
Who know, maybe I am.
I think a lot of us are feeling this way at the moment with everything that is going on at the moment. Myself included. Suddenly little things can suddenly just be triggers for saddness, those of use who are sensitive to what’s going on around us.
I don’t think your crazy… (like this myself sometimes) …you just need the right person to talk with or to. Sometimes your partner is just not the right person at the time, sometimes you need someone else, a good friend or some one who is outside of the whole situation.
If you can’t confide in anyone, at least confide within yourself with yourself. Keep a little text file or diary where you write down how you are feeling about situations that you are going through. Maybe trying to put things down into words can help you to confide in the end. It can be a long road, but it can also help in not saying the wrong thing at the wrong time . . . or unintentionally hurting someone with things that you really really don’t mean and you’re just feeling that way out of frustration.
Hope this helps some . . . know how you feel . . . have been there . . . sometimes.
Thank you for responding. I just get in these depressed states and I don’t know what to do.
Crying Rain