I vowed that I wouldn’t cry
Wouldn’t let any tears fall
And all the same it was a lie
There are no more reasons to stall
I swore I didn’t even care
That you didn’t matter much
Now I don’t know what to do
Except to sit here and frown and pout
I should have known better
Should have known you’d leave
So now as my cheeks get wetter
I scream how I won’t grieve
I didn’t say wait or even hold on
I watched you walk out the door
Thinking that you’d be home by dawn
But you didn’t come back to fight anymore
I was asleep on a tear stained bed
Trying not to dream of you
Or the cruel things you said
But all the words were still new
I fell asleep with my heart bleeding
Pretending that you were dead
But really I was the one dying
With dreams of you dancing in my head