Death is the only way out!

Some days I feel trapped by all of lifes surprizes. I just feel like I should put a gun to my head and pull the damn trigger. Nothing goes my way and I want to keel over and die right infront of a hundred people that I know so they can all see that I needed them to help me but they did jack shit for me.

I just want to see their faces as my warm red blood gushes out of my head, all over them and to the floor. But then I see one girl that makes all of it goes away, but I can not have her. So again, I wish I would die.