Each Day More Freighting
feelings of resentment were always surfaced,
now i hide in the corner in which you pointed
hiding your lies with my disgrace,
it was all of your anger that which they anointed,
they point at me for your death,
calling me the cause and the flaw of your life,
the bones of your life surface to the grass,
now i feel your dead hands grasp my breath,
passing the torment, over myself i cry,
each day more freighting,
wanting to scream but with my voice i hear your lies,
enabling me to speak,
now i see the little girl you wished me to never be,
misbehaving just to spite you,
all i wanted was your attention just for me,
but even that you drink up in your empty glass,
forever i live with this torment,
it feels like something i should remember,
but all that was left was the hate that which consumed me and hardened,
your distance is paced at six feet in dirt and in heart
still your words haunt me above my mind,
they are carved to the extent of blood shed,
i fall into your grave reaching for the surface,
from death you tare me down,
forever taking advantage of my insecurities,
all my life feeding me lies in which i wanted to see,
unsaid words leave me unsettled,
i feel your expectations catching up with me,
cowering in my fear i am left alone to think,
of all that you mean to me,
but even you tare that out of my hands,
death or life you will always haunt me in my sleep,
forever crying for fear of a dream that may contain a memory of a childhood i was never
able have,
you will never die you will never live,
most of all you will never let me go,
i fall to your grave begging for my own future,
your crippled hands reach up and tare me down to you,
your to afraid to be alone,
so you grasp on to me living through me, sucking what little soul i have left to bare,
feeling your words as i close my eyes,
knowing your pain will consume me as it did you,
dont leave me you cry,
slowly the soil from the surface covers me,
not able to have you in life i might as well have you in the next….