Depression

Have you ever had one of those day when you just wanted to die. Not so much as going off and killing yourself but you just wish someone would come and kill you. Well those days come everyday for me and atleast once a week seriously think about killing myself. I don’t cut myself because I figure if you want to be dead why flirt with the idea of the extent of having the knife right there and have people worry about you because they see the scars why not just go ahead and do it. If I could find a way to commit suicide and get away with it without being caught in the middle or it not working out and just end up in a place where I don’t want to be I would go ahead and do it. I don’t see way everyone is so scared of death and dieing. It ends the suffering and the pain. Yes a happy day might come once in awhile but what about waiting between those days, months, or years. Then you know that the happiness will go away again and the depression and darkness will take over once more.