Will I ever stop crying
Will the memories fade away
Just when I start to forget
Something ignites my mind
A scent, a voice, a grave
Whatever it is, I can’t stop
Just when everything is getting sane
I see something that bows me away
A shock to my system
A mental meltdown
Everything quits working
And I just shut down
I lie to myself about you & me
I say it was nothing special
And that it doesn’t matter to you
And just when I start to believe
You come back to me
And I start to bleed insanity
I try to pretend there wasn’t an end
But then I get reminded
Every single day
That you’re not mine
What did I do wrong
What did I say
I lay awake at night
Tossing & turning
Dying to find an escape
Nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
Where did it all go, where’s my life
Don’t tell me it’ll be all right
I don’t’ want those lies
You know it’s all gone to Hell
And even you can’t save me now
So don’t try to act tough
Don’t attempt to be a hero
Cause all you’ll do
Is say that I don’t love you
And then I’ll cry & scream & shout
And beat all the emotion out
You’ll tell me it wasn’t meant to be
And I’ll love you for lying to me
Why can’t you understand
That I’m God’s gift to you
Why can’t you see
That you’re killing me
Why can’t you come back
And just love me