desire, passion, and murder

have you ever wanted something so bad you’d do anything for it? well i have and here is my story…. Josh and i had been best friends since 6h grade and he ha d been dating my other best friend since 7th grade and now here we were the summer after 8th grade and i realized i was inlove with josh. i knew he was in love with megan and not me though so i would watch them every day and i would feel so jealous and i would sit there and imagine it bein me kissin him and not herbut it was never like that he was too in love with her to ever even think of bein with me. i wanted him so bad i could feel it in my heart. every night i would lay in bed and dream of him no matter how much i tried not to think of him i did i thought of him i dreamed of him i loned for him for his body next to mine but i couldn’t have him! i was sittin with josh and megan one day at his house and she went to the bathroom and i moved closer to josh i felt my leg against his and his against mine i felt him lean closer to me i turned to him and i folt his lips press against mine and suddenly it was like all my dreams were coming true i kissed him long and slow and as we drew away from each other i looked into his eyes and i saw his desire for me was as strong as mine for him. i knew he had been burning inside for me i told him to come to my house that night but he told me no he told me to just stay at his house till megan left and so i did but the wait was like nothin i ever felt i was longing for him like i never before had and i wanted him so bad that all i could do the whole night till megan left was stare at him. finally megan went home and he walked over to me and ho took my hand and led me to the bedroom he layed me on his bed and kised my body slowly and he told me he had been wanting me all summer and that he was just too scared to say anything he told me he loved me and would leave megan to be with me. i loved him so mush and hearing him tellin me he too loved me was the exact thing my heart desired. we had sex all night fellin him inside me made all my desires and dreams come true and when he came inside me i felt as though i knew we’d be togeather 4ever. i spent the night and he held me all night. the next day it was me him and megan at her house and he pulled me outside and told me not to over mention what had hapopened the other night that he had made a mistake and i meant nothing to him he told me he loved megan and would never leave her for me he said i was just a one time thing… i stood there after he went in and i just couldn’t belive what had jus happened everything i wanted and needed had just been takin away. i went home and layed in bed and i thought of eveything that had happened and i knew what i had to do… i had to have him and i knew that meant gettin rid of megan! i stayed up all night thinkin how to do it i finall decided… it was a week later before i got my chance we were hiking and it was just me and her we were all alone in the woods and i grabbed her and slammed her into a tree then smassed her head in with a rock till she stopped tryin to fight back she lay ther not movin and i realized what i had done and i felt happy i knew now that nothin was stoppin me and josh from bein together. i drug her body into the wood and burried her i left and went home. a few weeks later ppl had found her body and burried her properly. josh was upset and i was there to comfort him we spent hours togeather and my love for him grew stronger and my desire for him grew greater i didn’t just want hhim anymore i needed him and i knew i had to have him!!! i asked him if he would date me and that i had done eveything to be with him and he told me NO and that he could never love me cause he’d never forget megan and when i knew i couldnt have him i went crazy and i ran to the kitchen and i grabbed a knife and i stabbed him 3 times and lefthim for dead but he didnt die he lived but he is paralized and now i wanna kill myself for what i did to my love and now i shall kill myself cause i dont deserve to live after i hurt him so much… i’m sorry josh and goodbye!