Most of the time this year has been taken up by bad bouts of depression and feeling so low that it’s been hard to get out and about. It’s been an effort to step out of the house and into the world, face what’s out there that’s been inflicting it’s pain.
At least that was until after my birthday…
Now it’s the total opposite. But is it any better being the other way, floating around all day with my head in the clouds, not being able to think straight and floating off on some ecstatic feeling. (no I’m not taking any drugs, just the usual coffee) This just gets silly as I can’t sit and concentrate on things too long and get artwork done. It’s okay for a little while, sure, but now it’s getting beyond itself and it’s even making me feel like I don’t need to eat…
So is there anyone else out there like this?
yeah i do actually it seems like theres no point or meaning to anything i do anymore and i am starting to wornder why i do it though im not depressed all the time im not happy either im stuck in the middle and i cant really describe the feeling its kinda weird i guess
I’m definitely like that. It drives me off the wall. Usually I switch from “off-the-wall with an ectastic yet unproductive feeling” to “geez I’m so depressed I don’t want to do anything” every few days, or sometimes a few times a day. Lately I’ve found a middle ground. I’ve been like this for almost two months. I’m hoping it will stick, but somehow I doubt it. Not that I’m getting much done anyway.
How dissapointing, i wanted another “i’m so depressed” post so i could pay the fuck out of it, but you’re happy…..thats not fair, there’s nothing to work with here. Go get all depressed and whinge about it damn you.
but yeah i get that sometimes……oh wait it is drugs………eat something, preferably something with alot of vitamin C, it’s good for you, fast food is very bad for you and the corperations never tell you just how bad, it’s alot worse than you think. Fast food is packed full of really nasty chemicals. in china there were people who had these cancerous growths taking over their faces and everyone either had aids or looked like it because of all the chemicals in the environment there. The big companies are all endorsing it too it’s like they just cant see that although they’re making alot of money now the whole planets going to be fucked for their kids you know? and everyone just goes along with it because we are all stupid and get suckered in by all the media crap and the propaganda exept for Karl he just sits around growing his own vegetables and doing magic and stuff. the media is really evil too they’re always lying, like with the whole war thing they only tell you want they want you to think, and it’s not like they only show certain things they straight out LIE because they’re evil, some of my family were jahova’s witnesses and they’re not evil they’re really nice even if they are stupid they always make really nice food and most of it’s vegitarian too like that so it’s good for you and it has lots of vitamin C too, you all really need to eat more vitamin C i’ts really good for you and if you want to look young as well, you guys are all really young arnt you? thats what i was told, why does it call itself notyou? it gets all pissy if i try to write its real name or sex i think it’s funny. but if you want to look young you should become vegan it worked for me i’m 33 and i dont look that wrinkly at all really not that i’m bragging i just think you need to eat alot of vitamins they’re really good for you well i’m going to go and try these noodles notyou just made but it’s drunk so it probaly made a total mess but i’m really stoned so the food will be good even if it is messy you kids all have a nice day ok and eat lots of vitamins.
-bridget
Vitamins, there’s a lot of them in my vegies as I can’t afford take-away very often, and I eat little meat because I can’t afford that either. And stupid enough I don’t look my age much either, I look far young than I am, people are always guessing… Don’t do the pagen/ritual/ceremonial/or any other type of magic practices…just a bit of “Zen”.
Sometimes I just think it’s ‘Spring’; you know it’s Spring here in Australia…
Yeah I had that too, I got put on lithium, and when I wasnt depressed I’d go on these highs that felt real fake, like I was on drugs, I still get that occasionally.
I dunno, maybe it’s just that you want to be happy so your head pretends it is.
As much as it sux, exercise and healthy food (to a point) are good for fighting depression, as is sunlight.
(Sex is meant to be good too)
Notyou, I find that your comments just get funnier, but they should… you get a lot of practice.
Yup vitamins it is…
Notyou, who takes the vitamins?
And who’s the vegetarian?
You or Bridget?
Start eating moron, your diet should consist of your relatives organs/feces.
has nyone here ever had turtle heart?…now that it REALLY good
Most of these bitches never go past their dinner of filthy black cock.
hmmmn…you know, i think that’s called ADHD, hun.
notyou, id like to hear from karl, he seems like a kewl guy, karl..ny famous words?
Okay guys, enough’s enough. I’m a little pissed at hearing about ‘notyou’ and it’s posts/comments. It’s goddamn everywhere at the moment and this is no longer funny. It’s gettinmg past that point already and becoming quite tedious.
karl..u there?
ooh it’s soo tedious whinge whinge bitch bitch, greetings insertnamehere, Notyou and bridget is asleep after big industrial rave lots of drugs. so I will have no help with my English. I have famous words, RAUPENSCHLEPPER VON KREIG! have fun. so how are you Insert? If I can ask how old you are and what you do and where you are from?
i dont give out info..sorry.
but i like those famous words, HITLER if im not mistaken. i just wanted to hear from u karl, since ur last post hardly said anything.
Ok, that proves what a fucking moron you really are, do you know what that means? it means caterpiller of war. as I recall Hitler never said anything about caterpiller. I now know that you are simply some kid who saw all the racial abuse on this site and decided to jump on the bandwagon. I am prepared to forgive this should you be willing to admit your stupidity and renounce your previous comments. Remember that there is no shame in admitting you are wrong.
-karl
My granddad killed gremans. And I inherited the mp he stole. Kill ze nazi asses.
Ich bin ein TurboJugend!!
yeh, i dont know much about hitler, i dont speak german either (very obvious)
i still hate jews, and i still dont think they should be aloud to breathe the same air as the rest of us.
okay. good answe. This proves that you are nothing but an ignorant asshole who’s rants should be ignored. (Not that i’m offended as an individual by your crazy meanings, for i belive in no religion, and have quite the pale compexion….)
i have nmo belief either, actually..im budhist,and where the helll did u come from?? this is none fo ur business u ignorant little cock twisting self pittied anal rejective siameese terd fucker. u got on business here, i dont take history, i dont care about hitler, i dont take german, and i dont want to take german,i know that i dont know shit about hitler or about the german language, and i dont really care, u can lick the shit out ur grandmothers filthy oil hole for all i care, go get a life and mind your own damn business.
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And for those of you who don’t know what turbojugend is, please try to find out what Turbonegro is. You will find some good music.
get it on.!
don’t post nazi meanings if you don’t know what the fuck you are saying you ignorant little thing.
i never posted nazi meanings u insignificant little steaming bag of wet duche. i said that i hate jews and that they shouldnt be aloud to breathe the same air as the rest of us, i never said that i spoke german or that i studied the nazi camps and know everything about them, i have a reason for hating jews, and its a good reason, but its none of your damn business so fuck off you ghonoria stricken little jewish filth, you deserve be impaled on a wooden cross and then beaten over an open fire by the japaneese army.
Goddammit Insertcockhere, did you even read my post? I didn’t ever assume that you knew any german or anything about the history of the third reich, I was simply stating that you are a moronic poser who needs to shut his mouth. All of your posts in reply are completely pointless and have nothing to do with the subject matter, and who are you insulting? Frostyboy or me? i suggest you just log off and sit in a corner somewhere, or use yourself as a human speedbump on the autobahn, either would satisfy me. and frosty, your grandfather killed germans, fantasic, good for you. It was a world war, alot of people killed each other, I could say for example that my grandfather killed russians or my ancesters killed huns or that the monkeys I evolved from killed the monkeys you evolved from. try having some substance to your comments instead of posting pointless drivel.
-Karl
oh by the way Insertcockhere, why exactly do you hate jews? please stun me with your intellect, thrall me with your acumen.
I agree with Karl
will do Karl:)
It was a rather dumbass post… What i meant to say is that i disagree with the nazis. Got nothing against Germans. I’m 1/8 german myselfe…