dialogues

i think it’s a stalker… ha

at first i thought it was you

heads will roll

no

shattered

sweet is the name

so what is bad about that

we sat and drank and smoked

i got so smashed

so what is bad about that

i had some interesting conversations though

i didn’t say bad

just fucked up

they posted some of my shit

i have known you would go some where

you are on your way

so you are okay?

i like the sound

i forgot about your fucked up spelling

didn’t mean to insult you

fuck the system and all forms of beurocracy

you did not tell me

i feel left out

i didn’t tell anyone i was coming

oh it was so funny!

make it into a satirical sort of thing

the rest i am making her burn for me

home

about a week from now

i am on my last j

i have a question

what happened

are you still?

also i just stop giving a fuck

life is too short to care about that stuff

you know its funny

maybe i could pay you some other way

i wouldn’t ask you to give it to me for free

that would be asking too much

a mere smile would suffice

it would be asking too much from you

i small smile would do

no

you would not

it was sarcastic

damn

it was in a song

it cut me off

oh, i still feel the same way

like no one i have ever seen before

i had a weird dream the other day

we were playing somewhere

we started playing “rape me”

took off my shoes and threw them at people

after the song ended i collapsed on the stage

then i put my jacket back on and played the rest of the show in socks, underwear and a trench coat

it makes me sad

i don’t know it

but it makes me feel some thing

i thought i knew better

god never talked about the dinosaurs

do you really believe that?

it is all random to me

all this shit is a lot simpler then what we make it out to be

you don’t believe we have souls?

i think we had them

so why don’t you kill us all?

if you don’t care?

if we’re all so useless?

bomb the entire fucking world!

i never said that

last time i checked i was still human

so why don’t you annihilate it?

but there is no answer

if the little pink bunny under your bed keeps you safe

i watched some one die

i knew he would be ok

he could have been the guy that cured cancer

but you could die at a moment’s notice

you could fall through the ice

my eyes were opened

nothing to fear

that’s why i am telling you

you hate everything sometimes

don’t you?

you are perfect in my head

i can’t tell you any thing you don’t know

about you

i’ll survive

i can read your voice

it’s ok

oh jesus, the bastard

i just wasn’t good enough for him

but your mouth liked the taste

that is all that matters some times

yeah i’m just not good enough…

you were always too good for me

i don’t understand why you don’t believe me

but i guess that will not change

that’s comforting

she does not want to believe i still love her

at least someone gives a fuck whether i live or die

and i think inside you feel the same way

even if you don’t want to admit it

your mind is telling you to be defensive

that hurts me

true for moments

i love everything some days

other days i want to die

and it kills me

when you do

and it kills you too

yes, and i am a hypocrite

because that’s what i always say

that’s what i do

all the time

there’s nothing left to say

sometimes it’s good to be kicked in the junk

running out of people to blame if i can’t blame myself

flowers… are all dead now

anti-people

you saw the flowers once

apocalyptic never good mornings

they will be at your side some day

the world is fucked up

not us

nothing, everything, it’s all the same and i know i love it

you just don’t listen to me any more

i love you

good night

just remember time

i want to say it

i meant it seems natural to say it back

but i can’t

protect yourself from getting hurt

i can see it

it is so close

yet i know it can never be

there is no time

save it in your mind

i know you will

you see things no one else does

you live through a little thing

like a flower or a leaf

you live on a little rock

distances away but you get your essence through

your own words sound so much better

thank you for your time

your smile is my mind

i can’t remember

i wont let myself

time isn’t real

i am worn out

sweet dreams

maybe i’ll see you tomorrow