what is the definition to your favorite drug? a sad low goth on the verge of a sanity check searching for someone out of the darkness ever so clear to communicate with other than my head cause it its self isnt enough to slow down my addiction for the cloud #10 i have been high and low and have waited and sometime got off my ass and searched for some one who will listen to me to understand me to accept me along with my dark side not just the mask but the reflection ever so clear behind it who although is dark him self he is lighter than me i some way
that person i found ever so many months ago or shall i say he found me in my time when it was crucial that someone step in before i did i am as my dark commrads so pittiful in my own that i try to cover every wound but the pain and blood stain the sheet i coverd it up with so i apply more and more then walked away but when i came back it smelled like old gym shoes so it was then that it was thrown away but it hasnt disapeard it haunts me and it arises against me i try to controll my own thoughts trying to teach my self whats real and whats not but it doent want to listen instead it blocks me out and locks me out of my own brain so to say i am alone searching for a better life for that thing we call happiness but i dont know where it is but i continue my search pitty me no but understand me yes i am dismayed and disgusted at my own soul how will i take controll?