starring at the mirror. tierra’s piercing eyes appearing black when they are suppose to be green. seeing her scars upon her pale skin. starving her body just to be onsidered “beautiful.” she just wishes that she would be wanted of that she could just die.
her boyfriend of 2 yrs had broken up with her. her mother 4 yrs before had abadonned her leaving her with herald (her father). herald normally just sat on his gray recliner drinking his coors light. yelling every five min “bitch go get me another beer before i beat you again.” she would walk out of her room to get him a beer and then go right back to her room and slam the door. she reached under her dresser to unvail a shiny blade. pressing down firmly she would open a gash that would let liquid flow out of her veigns. making yet another scarlet coloerd stain on her snow white carpet. “another addition to my carpet of pain and hate.” she always thought to herself. walking to the bathroom she pulls out of the hamper a pair of worn jeans. just resting on her hips she grabbed a metal studded belt to hold them up. at weighing barley 90 pounds at the age of 17 she doenst need to lose anymore weight but thats not what she thinks. picking up her keys to her beaten up beretta she walks toward the door. as normal herald has something he has to say ” what the hell am i suppose to do with you gone?”she replies” maybe you coudl get up for once and get yourself your own beer or maybe you could spare maybe 3 beers i dont think it will kill ya. your liver i think would like a brake for once.” tierra knew she was only good for being heralds slave. he never wanted tierra he told her many times of how he wish her mother would of gotten an abortion. tierra was a constant reminder of the rubber braking and how much a mistake that was. now hes left with a 17 yr old who he got stuck with when her mother left. she runs out the door grabbing the new pack of newports out of her pocket and lighting it up. gettign in her car there are cigarette packs everywhere. managing to keep a pack a day average gets her thru the day. looking at her face in her rearview mirror. she sees her collection of bruises she has gotten from herald. he just added one last night it was quite a shiner by now. pulling up the driveway to her best friend’s (ashton) house. a tear falls down her cheek. ashton and tierra were friends for around 10 yrs now. they understood each other more then anyone in this world did. ashton stepping out her back door looked at tierra seeing a newport cig hanging from her lip like normal. ashton appearing at tierra’s wrist seeing the blood around her cut that was made only 30 min ago. ashton feeling the razor blade in her left pocket (she was getting ready to cut just as tierra pulled up). ashton didnt cut because her life was terrible (even tho her family made her insane and she coudlnt handle any stress without wippin out a lighter and a cig and jsut hating the world) she jsut cut to feel alive to know that she wasnt dead literally just knowing that she was dying inside. lookign up at tierra aston knew something was wrong. seeing tears rollign down tierra’s cheeks. tierra never cryed she was like steal never was bent but i guess she jsut coudlnt handle anymore. ashton and tierra walked into ashtons room where they would talk about how life was so mean to them. then ending up cutting themselves till the anger was gone. always saying “why wont we just die” never really retrieving there goal of killing themselves this night was different. tierra looked ashton in the eyes and told her that ashton was the only thing that kept her alive for so long. said that she just couldnt take this world anymore. throwing her arms around ashton’s shoulder she whispered in her ear that she loved her. ashton now also crying said that she couldnt handle living with tierra dead and that she would also spare her life. saying i love you to tierra she knew that she was making the right decision. she hated life and knew that living tierra would just eat her inside. both of them took their lives with the deep cut they both started to have blood pour out. together they left this world just as they wanted. hating life and only having each other there was no way to look back just to go ahead and die together forever they are……………