She thinks about it each time she wait for the train to come
Each time she watch the river flow
Each time she walk in the streets and in the drugstore
Each time she’s alone and each time she’s not
Each time she crosses a bridge
Each time she repulse or each time she spill
A child’s tear or a tear of distress
Each time she’s at home
Each time she open the razors drawer or the medecine cabinet
Each time she want to ease the pain
Each time she swallow and each time she sniff
Each time he look at her
Each time she look back at him
Each time he don’t say “you’re pretty”
Each time she feel ugly
Each time she see her mom ruining her life for her
She thinks about it but still she restrain herself
Yet deep inside each fucking time the train comes
She feel like jumping in front of it
She thinks about it each time but she wait
Two steps away from this railroad she know by heart
She thinks about it each time but she wait
Until she find a way to forget it again