Pushing her against his body; who had dared to touch her? Who had dared to harmed her? An it without no soul. Something with no control. How could you murder something so gentil, so weak? Pity only l felt for it. l curse you! l curse you a million times! l cried into the night. A night which would be in my heart for all my existence. No consolation had l.
Months of sorrow. Sleepless nights. No food in my system. l could not think of nothing else that of her body motionless, lifeless, uncapable of any harm to no one a body so magnificent as her. l had waited until she was ready. The night before she had surrendered to me. l could feel her heart beating next to mine. Her face showing a painful pleasure. She trembeled when we finished. l was in heaven. We reached another dimention. One of us alone.
Feeling peoples sorry looks as you walk by. Those who said they knew you, whisper as you pass. Everyone say they understand and that they have gone thru the same. Fuck no they haven’t no one has. l felt her heart stop. l saw her flesh drain. The light of her eyes dimmed. How could people say those torturing words. My heart was filled with hate. l felt disgusted by every smell by everyone. Some days l would dream about her l would see her smiles how her weightless hair was moved by the wind. How her eyes twinkled! Ohh so much beauty! Ohh so wonderful! How did anyone like this diserved to die! She didn’t!! Day by day l still longged for her return. l still looked for her face in the crowds, l still tried to smell her natural perfum.
No one understud my grief. l was left alone in my room in the corners in which l hid. In places where no one could see me. Cried cried day and night falling fainting when my body could resist no more. But for her l wanted to die for her l would had gived my life. They will forever be ignorant to why l loved her so. She was not only part of me. l had taken her soul. l had taken her whole…