Hopeless

Here we are back in this cruel cold world again,
Where my countless sins I wish to amend.
Fireless sighs and calming breaths,
slowly patiently waiting for death.
Hunger, Sadness, Depression, Betrayal,
I always try hard but I always fail.
I want to die but i want to live,
I always receive but also want to give.
Letting go and breaking free would be a big relief to me.
But here I am, I am still here, where I can’t shed just one more tear.