BoNgJuNkiE (Frank): star friend
StarFiend3 (me): fiend, frank, fiend. as in coke fiend. i am no one’s friend today
BoNgJuNkiE: y not
StarFiend3: because i’m wretched and hideous and unlovable, and i’m doomed to be alone…i’m trying to get used to it
BoNgJuNkiE: dont tink that way not good
StarFiend3: when you’re always sad it’s hard to have self esteem.
BoNgJuNkiE: god collen tisk tisk
StarFiend3: i know….i should just fix myself, right? make myself happy? i’ve been trying to do that, or at least fake it, for months and since it hasn’t worked i now plan on being as whiny and depressed as i damn well please
BoNgJuNkiE: go forit
StarFiend3: well then would it bother you if i killed myself?
BoNgJuNkiE: collen u know u ave no erason to do such tings
StarFiend3: but i’m whiny and depressed! that’s a good reason
BoNgJuNkiE: lol
StarFiend3: i’m not kidding though….i don’t know what else to do, i can’t go on like this
BoNgJuNkiE: umu should have alot of sex maybe that sloves itfor me
StarFiend3: you know damn well i’ve attempted before, why are you acting like it’s a joke? do you even give a shit whether i live or die?
BoNgJuNkiE: yes i do collen but u cant be so serious about it
BoNgJuNkiE: i dunno what to tell u
BoNgJuNkiE: i gtg clean my house later feel batter
StarFiend3: fuck you frank
BoNgJuNkiE: y fuck me
BoNgJuNkiE: what i do
StarFiend3: if you found out tomorrow that i was dead, how would you feel? do you have any idea how much it hurts to be treated like a joke? like cleaning your house is more important then my life? i consider you my friend and you prioritize cleaning over talking to me when i feel like this? what the fuck frank
BoNgJuNkiE: imsorry collen
StarFiend3: listen i rarely lecture but if you think like that then you don’t know what friendship is and you are not my friend.
BoNgJuNkiE: ok lets talk what is the reason behind ur wanting to die what is makin u feel this
StarFiend3: oh now you care! now that i made you think about it! i had to threaten you just so that you’d give half a shit! that’s really fucked up
BoNgJuNkiE: what the fuck collen u do this to ur self what u fuckin need is tough love u can have soem one jsut hear ur whine get off ur ass and fix it
BoNgJuNkiE: fic y ur sad
BoNgJuNkiE: u cant wallow i mean i do it to but u can let shit take over u
StarFiend3: i don’t let it i’m in therapy i’m on meds i was even in a fucking mental hospital if that isn’t getting help what is
BoNgJuNkiE: i dunno collen u make urself whatever u wanna be
BoNgJuNkiE: now i must go cuz my ass is grass if i leave tis house like this
BoNgJuNkiE: later
StarFiend3: bye