Ahhhh…well this is my first time in this..but here it goes….im a person who gets depressed alot….n i alwas get out of it..but then i get rite bak into it…i dun kno y…. most of the time i get pissd off at the wau people act…n im pretty sure mpst of you are
Well….i get depressed for various reasons…if its not one thing its another.i never fail 2 find sum reason 2 get pissd off then eventually bcom depressed..im pretty emotionally unstable… but for some reason i can keep a good mask on when im front of other people….
The things that pisses me off the most are hypocrisy, two faced people, people who are phony.. n the phrase “oh evrybodys doin it”….
To start things off will b hypocrisy…(I’ll go in order)..hypocrisy pisses me off cuz i hate it wen ppl exclaim do sumthin for a cause..n then all of a sudden drastically change…it drives me mad….if u havea cause stick 2 it!!!
The next thing is two-faced ppl.. Why woulda nyone go n betray sumone..for anycause…its stupid..if sumone trusts u, then take that as a compliment n dun go behind their baks n expose them….if ur goin to get sum one to trust u stay loyale..but for sum reaosn rarely anyone does that nny mroe..there arnt anymore loyale friends anymroe..well thats wat i think anyway….
Phony ppl are so annoyin…tehy giv theeir fake smiles n they ask how ur family is odin n tell u to say hi to them for u….another thing that is annyoin is wen ppl say to u..oh my how much uve grown….. its as if they expect u 2 get smaller… ppl waste they time tryin2 get more firends wen they will barely spend time wit the ones they already have if they evn have friends…..
Most of the time wen im depressed i go to this one friend…she neva really understands me..but she is always tehre 4 me..wich confuses me cuz im not sure y i deserve ur loaylty…im always negative..n she jus trusts me n is loyale 2 me as im loyale 2 her….i find this wierd..cuz ive enva had a friend like her b4….ive neva realli eva trusted sumone like i trust her…..tho she enva undestands me…she try2 help me…n shes pklay wit me bein goth..wen all teh oehr ppl i kno ask me wats my problem..n i jus get pissd off at them…. it pisses me off that they cant expcet the way i am.. n if they dun l;iek it den jus dun mention nny thing at all……
Antoher thing that bothers me is that my fmaily alwasy gets pissd off at me wen i say i dun belive in christ….my family is jus so big on it…they say oh ull c the error of ur ways….y cant they excpet as i am…the hypocrits cuz they belive so strongly in americas wasy butn wen i excerise my rite not 2 belive in anything they get pissd at me..its incredibly stupid…
MOst of my fmaiyl emeber that i kno are “ghetto” n i get into arguments with tehm 2 defend my position… my family catorgorizes into these catorgories…ghetto, church, the ones i dun kno in china, the ones i dun kno in puerto rico who are pretty much church, then there is punk wioch is oli ym sister, then there isgoth wich is me…..my sister can sumtimes b “ghetto” so that pretty mucbleaves me by myslef…n i sort of liek ti dat way..but its annoyin then way my famiyl scrutinizes me…
Im sure many of u feel dat way..n most of u have da situations i have in my life rite now..dat is wats comforts me…
this is nice to read and everything. i really understand what u mean about people having two faces. the only bad thing i have to say (plz don’t get pissed at me)is could u learn to spell the words out and spell them right and that would make it much easier to read.
You think it’s annoying when people scrutinise you, but you’ve given them all these little labels? That’s pretty hypocritical in itself.
You said people shouldn’t mention the fact yuo’re a goth. But you why be that way if you don’t want it mentioned? Some part of you wants to stand out, and thats cool but you can’t get pissed off when people notice you. That’s just stupid.
You got some quality rage there buddy. Of course most of it’s just the deadly cocktail of hormones …. but it’ll pass.
I’ll give you some advice about dealing with people. Don’t just get pissed off with them all the time. Stop, take a biiiiiiiiiiiig deep breath. Count to ten and if that dfoesn’t work then keep counting tilll you feel better.
Than I want you to think about why people act the way they do. Most people have a really good reason.
People betray others and act two faced because they’re scared. Their own position is precarious so they try to destabilize other people first.
People try to force their Christ down your throat because it’s something for them to believe in. It’s helped them through hard tmes, and they think it might help you.
They can see how much rage you got goin on and they just want to help is all.
Lastly, don’t judge people who you think are phony. So they’re nice to you … SO FREAKIN WHAT?
Maybe you don’t deserve the attention, maybe you’re suspicious of it. But until they actually hurt you, don’t let it bother you. Maybe they just genuinely wanna know about ya family, or they think you grew taller, or whatever.
Trust me, you’re gonna get over this stage, and you’re gonna thank god for it. But till then just try to sit back and relax.
Or, better still, get a punchbag, beat the shit out of it every once in a while. As a boxer I know that works.
You ever need somebody to talk to who will actually understand …. try me on
allifeelishappy@hotmail.com
Take care, ::B::
P.S. I don’t care if you get pissed at me or not, but please try to type a little better. Oh, the word is “and” not just “n”.
Thankyou blacklight
“but for some reason i can keep a good mask on when im front of other people….”
But wait…wouldn’t that make you a phony? You seem pretty hypocritical yourself.
I can understand the Religion part. Well, I can understand all of what you said but I haven’t been through it all. Some people can’t live without something to believe in. They pray and think to themselves “Don’t worry. Everything will be fine. (Insert deity here) will take care of me. ” And if that helps you through life then why not? I think you should try to find a religion that you are comfortable with. It may help.
The only reason people say ‘my, you’ve grown,’ is because they can’t think of any other conversation starter or they just want to be polite to you or your parents. You shouldn’t get mad when poeple point out obvious things. I have blue hair… do you know how many people come to me in the store and say.. ‘Man, your hair is blue.’? I’d like to punch them for being so dumb, but I shouldn’t. And I don’t. They’re not used to it, but you already have become accustomed to who you are.
You didn’t mention anything about the phrase Everybody’s Doing It. Thought I should let you know.
And I don’t really mind that you substitute words with number and shorten things like because to b/c or anything like that, but if you know how to spell the word then why mix up the order of the letters? In short. You’re bad at this typing thing.
Have a nice day.
-tox-
beautiful … you’re welcome i guess. i’m not sure what you’re thanking me for but fine …. my ego can always use the gratitude. <G>
::B::