i sit in the past

I sit here in the past- remembering how things were so unclear-the way you looked when you closed your eyes-trying to fight back the tears-I never wanted to leave you-and now you seem so far away-I feel so fucking broken- I’ve lost the meaning to everything I’ve wanted to say- so don’t take this pain from me- I want to shove it deep in side-ill keep it hidden deep within me- with my scars I hide-my heart was ripped out- and I watched as it bled to death- you could of tried to save me- but you let me die instead- cause I’m left here with nothing-nothing but you- I try to hide it- but it always bleeds through-take a deep breath and it all goes away-I try to forget it but it never turns out that way- so its been so long since I’ve seen your face- I miss that look in your eyes-I miss the way you taste- put your hands on me-wipe away my tears- its easier said then done-to erase all my fears-I still feel fucking broken and battered-I’m so fucking sick of feeling used-but I still love you- but I wish it wasn’t true-