I did something wrong again… I did something everyone was laughing at, all but my friend. She was pissed, beond pissed…
I think I dissapointed her, I can never do anything right, why? I hate myself and my life, I try to do what they want, but I cant.
I want to die but I can’t, that’s be wrong, it’d cause even more people to be dissapointed in me, I always dissapoint people, I can’t help it.
My twisted form of humor everyone hates, so I can’t keep people happy even though I try…
I wish everyone would leave me alone, just let me be the way I am without trying to change me into something I can never be, ever…
But of course that would be too easy for them to do. so I will continue to live in the dispair that is my life, for as long as I am alive
Crimson,
Im actually the opposite, ive been alone for so long, now that im trying to make a serious attempt at “joining” the human race, i cant even identify…but one thing i did learn right off the get go was that i wasnt going to become anything or anyone that others wanted. They say everyone is different, but i believe there are those that go even farther than the average different if there is such a thing. Please stick in there and remember, where ever you lack, you have an more than an abundance in another…..(oh and to paraphrase the french, screw ’em)
No one person can please everybody. It is not possible. Also, if you know someone for long enough you are going to dissapoint them. Brief encounters with people are best, because then there’s only enough time to leave a good impression, and you can get out before they notice the bad side. But if you leave a bad impression, don’t try and change, as it will only make it worse…
just stop trying to please everyone and be yourself. if they don’t like it, fuck them. you get used to being lonely after awhile.
yeah i have to agree with Mourning…..you can get used to being alone….
Crimson Tear,what you speak of I have been through. Until this year I had no friends. But now I have many beyond many. I never thought ina million years I’d see so many people who feel like me. It really is strange.
Who cares stuff them just have one friend close to you and no1 else.
OH MY GOOD GOD YOU PEOPLE HAVE A DEPRESSING OUTLOOK ON LIFE. DURING MY FRIENDLESS PERIODS, MY BRIEF SUICIDAL PHASES, MY DRUG EXPERIMENT EPISODES, MY INGENOUS PLAN TO BACK OUT OF LIFE … I NEVER GOT SO DESPONDENT ABOUT THE HUMAN RACE.
WHEREVER YOU ARE …. GET OUT OF THERE. BAD MEMORIES OF HURT AND BETRAYAL AND MISERY TIE US DOWN. NO MATTER HOW WE PULL AT THE BINDINGS, WE’LL NEVER GET FREE. SO CUT THEM.
THERE ARE A HUNDRED PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD WHO I LOVE BEYOND LIFE. WHO I WOULD WILLINGLY FOLLOW INTO THE FIRES OF HELL. SOME OF THEM ARE HAPPY PEOPLE, FOREVER SMILING …. BUT SOME ARE NOT. SOME ARE UNHAPPY, INSECURE, CYNICAL, LONELY. LIKE YOU. I LOVE THEM ANYWAY, BECAUSE THEY’RE UNAFRAID TO BE WHO THEY ARE, AND THEY DON’T FIGHT TO MAKE ME HAPPY WHEN IT’S MAKING THEM MISERABLE. THERE IS SUCH A THING AS TRYING TOO HARD TO PLEASE.
YOU DON’T WANT THE HUMAN RACE TO LEAVE YOU ALONE. I CAN TELL YOU THAT NOW.
YOU WANT IT TO GO EASY ON YOU. WELL *NEWS FLASH* – LIFE ISN’T EASY. PEOPLE AREN’T EASY. THEY LOOK AT YOU AND THEY DON’T SEE WHO YOU TRULY ARE. THEY SEE A REFLECTION OF THE WAY YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF.
FOR GODS SAKE, FIND SOMETHING TO SMILE AT. AND I DON’T MEAN SMILE JUST FOR THE SAKE OF FAKING IT. I MEAN FIND SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. THE MINUTE YOU START LIKING LIFE, THE PEOPLE COME THICK AND FAST.
THERE ARE LITERALLY MILLIONS OF PEOPLE OUT THERE WITH YOUR SENSE OF HUMOR. MILLIONS OF PEOPLE WHO APPRECIATE WHAT IT IS TO BE WHO YOU ARE WITHOUT EVER HAVING TO CHANGE.
IF YOU DISAPPOINT … DON’T APOLOGISE FOR YOURSELF. MAKE SURE THAT NEXT TIME YOU DON’T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE AGAIN. EVENTUALLY YOU’LL LEARN HOW TO BE PART OF THE WORLD, AND YOU’LL STOP MAKING MISTAKES, AND PEOPLE WILL STOP BEING DISAPPOINTED. JUST BE SECURE IN YOURSELF.
::B::
What’s wrong with you? Dying is easy, you should learn how to live. But maybe you’re too scared of life.
I suppose you feel lonely. So what? Be your own friend. Trust no one but yourself. What do you care about the others?
You’re depressed cause you dissapoint everyone. What the fuck is this suppose to mean? That you’re not strong enough for this world? If you wanna give up, do it! Weakness and cowardice are not the attributes in this world.
Stop complaining! Life is too damn short. Live it! Fight it! Dare!
i think i may have to concur with blacklight and dhyanna. maybe you are scared. and come on, you’re here aren’t you? so you’ve already found many people who share your sense of humor. read the posts. everyone on this site is both a critic and comedian and i don’t think anyone would have that change.