If only…

– If Only –

Staring at the bitter unforgiving snow
I watch with indifference
As it floats down to cover the earth’s surface
Until it’s all I can see
The truth well hidden under its layers

Tears stream down my cheeks, burning my already hot flesh
Unknowingly, I slowly tear away at my sanity
Using self-loathing and pity as my weapons against myself
I siphon my anger from my thoughts to my hands
Gladly trading physical pain for emotional torture

I wonder how one could be as cold and unforgiving
As this unending blanket of white enveloping the earth
And after such a warmth
How they could so quickly cover it up
And force themselves to doubt it was ever there

Feeling shoots up my arm
More pleasing than destructive
I welcome it, relaxing a little
My thoughts start to numb
I smile – for I know the snow will melt in time

If only pain could melt away as easily…

Categorized as poetic

By LeXiS

Roses are red, violets are blue, I'm schizoprenic and so am I!