Dear
How can I Wright a letter to a man more a shadow
Whose name I have never know ,But a man none the less I have loved all my life.
I’m simply righting to tell you that I am so sorry.
i just dont think You understand,
then again maybe this was your idea all along….
I’m not that little girl ,
I’m even more lost than ever now
so why don’t you help me this time .
I cant / wont put myself through
This anymore.
I loved you, even thou I thought my own sanity was dwindling.
I believed you, would come back
For me atleast .
How could I go on for so long without you,
Your face a mask only seen in dreams
But dreams fade…..like you did.
This bond held so tightly by the love we shared
Is slowly unraveling,
Maybe I wasn’t suppose to remember…
Maybe all these images in my head ,are my own twisted form of finding purpose.
I still feel you in every breath of this dammed hallowed shell ,
And I cant chalk up all those feelings to mere insanity.
I still and will always love you ,
I cant wait any longer for you to wake into this reality
My tears over you are filling up this room ,
And I don’t know how to swim
Do you even know how much I’ve cried over you
Do you know how alone I’ve been all this time
Do you realy understand the things I’ve done over those tears, in empty rooms ……or do you even care.
I’m not so foolish I’d try again …
But do you understand -forbid
Because none else does .!
I can’t cling tightly to only the memory of a shadow
Anymore .
I’ll keep the song as a reminder , that I was once loved
That someone out there at least cared enough, to let me pretend
Everything would Be all right someday….
I’ve said all I came to say, and now unsure the sadder
Good bye old friend ,
But sadly friends we were more.
or i could have let you go sooner
~*Lucid*~