jinxteen

hit me off a few of them beers
while i dismiss my utter tears
sad as any other inmate
but this inside my head

it haunts my sleep and before i go to bed
my legacy, its all twisted
if there was any warning i missed it
i feel absurd
as youve heard
my stomach is flipping
but i keep sipping
thinking of nothing but the chemicals
taking out my brain cells
just like the spells
but with a sour taste
smell like waste
im just unworthy
cant communicate
tattoos turn you away
cant get a job call me a slob
im living in the man made hell
trying to rebel
looking for jesus
im a sinner thats what i am
apart of the fucking scam
damn
wondering if my name is in the book
i dont even want to look
my life splashes before my eyes
i fall on my knees and beg for it to stop
for every tear someone has cried harder
for every suicide attempt some ones done it
yet im still complaning
for every time i dont eat some one wants to
this is tearing me into pieces
there is no other thieses
im in that same fucking ball everyday
stainded with wepts from the fucking belt
im a walking death
still sucking in breath
cursed to live or die
do or try
they call me dreamer
the muffled screamer
covered in paint that makes it look like i smile
thats foul
wisper into my ear
things i fear
stop me cold
im throwing up mold
staining the earth
since the day of my birth
why do parents threaten us
“i brought you here i can take you out”
what is that all about
i never asked to be here anyway
im going to die anyday
closing in im staring in the mirror but im invincible
i cant find my self cause theres nothing left

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By sabrocks

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