I dedicate this writing to all who have lost love, in any form or in any pain. The title of this work has personal value to me, being the base of this writing.
I slowly take an opened hand into my grasp, so fragile. Why do things happen like this? I lose the ones I love, and then i’m alone again. Forever lost in tears I have traveled far to find the truth. Is it there? Will there be hope to continue my journey onward into the forgotten realms of pain? Nobody knows how I feel. They don’t know what i’ve been through, what i’ve seen. It’s all over now. Time has allowed it to clear away.
But then, what all humans dread, a thought makes me remember the pain over and over again. I did nothing to deserve this, never wanted any harm to come to anyone. It always has to be this way, doesn’t it? Why do you want me to be alone? Why?
Why can’t you leave me alone for me to live my life, why do you haunt me? Forget me, and maybe I can continue my life. Maybe my tears will go away at night, when I lie there crying with thoughts of you. I can’t sleep. I can’t forget….
Forget me, and i’ll never forget you. I’ll always remember your face, smiling back at me. I will never forget the way you kissed me, so softly, so warm. The times we shared together, all of those glorious moments….gone. They will never be back. And I am now haunted with these visions of death. Your death.
Why did you go? Why did you have to leave me here all alone? Why did you let this happen?
Wherever you are, if you can hear me, come back. Come back! My eyes begin to water as these thoughts overwhelm me. I’m crying, do you see? I’m crying! Why can’t you be here to wipe away my tears? Why can’t anyone see?
I reach my hands outward, drawing close to me the one I cherish. My tears drip down my face. Why was I in love? Why did love make me fall in love with you? Just to lose you? Why does my life decide to take love away from me? Why aren’t you there? Why weren’t you there to hold me, as I am holding you right now?
Why weren’t you ever there? Why don’t you exist? Why am I just holding myself? Why can’t you come to me so I can love you? Why were you lost, and why are you gone now?
Come back to me. Don’t leave again. I’m dying. I’m slowly bleeding painfully without you.
Do you hear me? I’m dying! Bleeding.
Crying.
Does it have to be this way? Do you have to leave? Can’t you stay with me?
Is there nothing here that you want from me? I can give you the world, I can show you the glories. I can take you to places you’ve only dreamed of.
I can love you.
As I lay here, alone, I fall asleep with tears covering my face.
Another night has gone to love, the thing that feasts off my very soul every day.
Where are you?
That was beautiful. And it means so much to me, as I do the same each night.. thinking and dreaming and crying for the one whoe died…. without me
that really was touching. if i could shed my tears for him, i would. but someone once said don’t cry over someone who wouldn’t cry for you.