As I sit and think about you, I realise I have made lots of mistakes
Ones that I sometimes hate myself for..
But, I also realise that I have given you lots of things as well, one of them, my heart…
I’ve wanted nothing but to be with you, but it seems that everytime I try, you push me further away
I realise that may be my fault, and I try to redeem myself, and try to help ease your pain inside
But still, you push me away
You still say you care for me, and have feelings for me
But your actions seem to say otherwise
After everything is said and done, I am left behind, in the dust, wading through the blood in the raindrops..
Yet I still do not give up, like I have on many things in the past
I assure myself things will work out, but that never seems to last..
I sit here, day by day, and all I can do, is think of you..
I try to rid myself of these thoughts, that are plaguing my head
While they are pleasant… they are also painful…
For while the memories of you I have, are wonderful
The fact that I cannot relive the feelings I once shared with you, causes my pain..
And no matter how hard I try, I cannot, nor do not want to, escape this pain…
Because I still tell myself that things will come out good in the end
While the promise of the revival of the feelings I had in the past is great
The pain of not being able to have them, is even greater, and grows greater day by day…
And in realising this, I try to think of a solution, to end my pain..
And only one thing seems to be the solution, to let go of you…
Yet while I want to, for it will rid me of the pain plaguing my everyday life
Letting you go, would also cause me much strife
So I sit here, at a standstill…
Wondering, whether or not, to let you go…
This is a poem I just recently wrote… lemme know what you think about it, I could add more to it, but this is what I have so far